What does your username/handle mean?
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Join Date: Jun 2018
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I was pretty sauced when picking mine. I was so far gone that, in my state of mind, I “had” to pick a universal, respectable handle to alcoholics. Who doesn’t like a little Seger 😜🤙😂
So dumb. But I kind of like the name.
So dumb. But I kind of like the name.
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Join Date: Jan 2018
Posts: 293
Getting Closer comes from the fact that every time I went through the horrible hell that is the relapse and withdrawals I knew I was getting closer to sobriety.
Sure enough I have been sober since May 2018. I'd like to change my name to
"I'm there" but I don't want to jinx it
Sure enough I have been sober since May 2018. I'd like to change my name to
"I'm there" but I don't want to jinx it
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Join Date: Feb 2018
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I started using it on another message board back in 2004 when I got sober for the first time (lasted a year and a half or so.)
At the time I was really into the music of Jeff Buckley. Since then it's just kinda stuck. It's become kind of my alter-internet-ego. Here's one of my favs, from the album 'Grace.'
https://youtu.be/hXe1jpHPnUs
Lover, You Should've Come Over
Looking out the door I see the rain fall upon the funeral mourners
Parading in a wake of sad relations as their shoes fill up with water
And maybe i'm too young to keep good love from going wrong
But tonight you're on my mind so you never know
Broken down and hungry for your love but no way to feed it
Where are you tonight, child you know how much i need it
Too young to hold on and too old to just break free and run
Sometimes a man gets carried away, when he feels like he should be having his fun
And much too blind to see the damage he's done
Sometimes a man must awake to find that really, he has no-one
So I'll wait for you..... and I'll burn
Will i ever see your sweet return
Oh will I ever learn
Oh lover, you should've come over
'cause it's not too late
Lonely is the room, the bed is made, the open window lets the rain in
Burning in the corner is the only one who dreams he had you with him
My body turns and yearns for a sleep that won't ever come
It's never over, my kingdom for a kiss upon her shoulder
It's never over, all my riches for her smiles when i slept so soft against her
It's never over, all my blood for the sweetness of her laughter
It's never over, she's the tear that hangs inside my song forever
Well maybe I'm just too young
To keep good love from going wrong
Oh.... lover, you should've come over
'cause it's not too late
Well I feel too young to hold on
And I'm much too old to break free and run
Too deaf, dumb, and blind to see the damage I've done
Sweet lover, you should've come over
Oh, love well I'm waiting for you
Lover, you should've come over
Cause it's not too late........
At the time I was really into the music of Jeff Buckley. Since then it's just kinda stuck. It's become kind of my alter-internet-ego. Here's one of my favs, from the album 'Grace.'
https://youtu.be/hXe1jpHPnUs
Lover, You Should've Come Over
Looking out the door I see the rain fall upon the funeral mourners
Parading in a wake of sad relations as their shoes fill up with water
And maybe i'm too young to keep good love from going wrong
But tonight you're on my mind so you never know
Broken down and hungry for your love but no way to feed it
Where are you tonight, child you know how much i need it
Too young to hold on and too old to just break free and run
Sometimes a man gets carried away, when he feels like he should be having his fun
And much too blind to see the damage he's done
Sometimes a man must awake to find that really, he has no-one
So I'll wait for you..... and I'll burn
Will i ever see your sweet return
Oh will I ever learn
Oh lover, you should've come over
'cause it's not too late
Lonely is the room, the bed is made, the open window lets the rain in
Burning in the corner is the only one who dreams he had you with him
My body turns and yearns for a sleep that won't ever come
It's never over, my kingdom for a kiss upon her shoulder
It's never over, all my riches for her smiles when i slept so soft against her
It's never over, all my blood for the sweetness of her laughter
It's never over, she's the tear that hangs inside my song forever
Well maybe I'm just too young
To keep good love from going wrong
Oh.... lover, you should've come over
'cause it's not too late
Well I feel too young to hold on
And I'm much too old to break free and run
Too deaf, dumb, and blind to see the damage I've done
Sweet lover, you should've come over
Oh, love well I'm waiting for you
Lover, you should've come over
Cause it's not too late........
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Join Date: Feb 2009
Location: East Coast, USA
Posts: 958
Love the thread. I've been curious about this as well.
I chose StellaBlu for the GD song Stella Blue (StellaBlue was already taken).
The song feels tragic yet hopeful to me. And I love the guitar riff in it as it conveys so much emotion.
Some of the lyrics that I identify with:
"Through all the broken dreams and vanished years". Reminds me of, basically, time wasted in dysfunctional family drama and other drama. Time prior to educating myself and growing.
"When all the cards are down. There's nothing left to see." A realization that I need to be who I'm meant to be and not what someone else wants me to be.
"Can't win for trying." Frustration from trying and trying and trying to change dysfunctional people/relationships to no avail.
"Down every lonely street that's every been." Reminds me of pain from feeling misunderstood, disenfranchised and scapegoated throughout my childhood and the unnecessary loneliness that caused.
"Nothing comes for free" So intrinsic in my belief system is the realization that anything good in my life that has any value has come from working really really hard to achieve it. Some things come easy for some people. Not necessarily for me - except maybe running
"There's nothing you can hold for very long" A reminder for me to accept what comes into my life and not hold onto anything too tightly. It's sad but beautiful at the same time.
"Dust of those rusty strings just one more time." This reminds me that even after feeling like a failure in things again and again, I have to pick myself up off the floor and try again, because, really what else am I gonna do - lie there and be a failure?
"It seems like all this life was just a dream." This has two meanings for me, 1) maybe when you keep working at it, you realize that some of the things you thought you were a failure at was all in your head and/or 2)Maybe the things you think are important at a particular time aren't really that important in the end.
Anyhow, I'm not sure exactly what the meaning of the song is supposed to be but this is what it means to me.
Thanks again for the thread. I enjoyed reading what people had to say.
I chose StellaBlu for the GD song Stella Blue (StellaBlue was already taken).
The song feels tragic yet hopeful to me. And I love the guitar riff in it as it conveys so much emotion.
Some of the lyrics that I identify with:
"Through all the broken dreams and vanished years". Reminds me of, basically, time wasted in dysfunctional family drama and other drama. Time prior to educating myself and growing.
"When all the cards are down. There's nothing left to see." A realization that I need to be who I'm meant to be and not what someone else wants me to be.
"Can't win for trying." Frustration from trying and trying and trying to change dysfunctional people/relationships to no avail.
"Down every lonely street that's every been." Reminds me of pain from feeling misunderstood, disenfranchised and scapegoated throughout my childhood and the unnecessary loneliness that caused.
"Nothing comes for free" So intrinsic in my belief system is the realization that anything good in my life that has any value has come from working really really hard to achieve it. Some things come easy for some people. Not necessarily for me - except maybe running
"There's nothing you can hold for very long" A reminder for me to accept what comes into my life and not hold onto anything too tightly. It's sad but beautiful at the same time.
"Dust of those rusty strings just one more time." This reminds me that even after feeling like a failure in things again and again, I have to pick myself up off the floor and try again, because, really what else am I gonna do - lie there and be a failure?
"It seems like all this life was just a dream." This has two meanings for me, 1) maybe when you keep working at it, you realize that some of the things you thought you were a failure at was all in your head and/or 2)Maybe the things you think are important at a particular time aren't really that important in the end.
Anyhow, I'm not sure exactly what the meaning of the song is supposed to be but this is what it means to me.
Thanks again for the thread. I enjoyed reading what people had to say.
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Posts: 1,469
Lots of good name meanings here on this thread. Thank you for the question.
DreamCatcher- I am part Native American and love dreamcatchers, I collect them and the 17 is the year I got sober! (2017)!
DreamCatcher- I am part Native American and love dreamcatchers, I collect them and the 17 is the year I got sober! (2017)!
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Cosima means "order and beauty of the cosmos." Not gonna lie I first heard it from a tv show (Orphan Black) but just really liked the meaning.
Probably could've gone without the number attached but my birthday is 1/11 and I quit on 10/11.
Probably could've gone without the number attached but my birthday is 1/11 and I quit on 10/11.
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Join Date: Dec 2016
Location: New Zealand
Posts: 2,279
Originally Posted by MantaLady 
I’m an avid scuba diver and adore Mantarays. Many years ago on a dive in Egypt they were teaching a class and as I am an experienced diver I was allowed to go off and do my own thing for a bit. I was hovering in the water and saw a huge Manta come right over my head about 3 inches above me, they like the bubbles on their bellies. There had not been any Manta seen in that area in over 20 years. Same thing happened at another dive site a few days later. When I wasn’t in the water no one else saw any Manta’s! The Egyptian people in the small town started calling me the “Manta Lady”. If I went to a shop or restaurant the staff would say “ahh you the Manta Lady” and be very excited to see me lol
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Join Date: Nov 2007
Location: MO
Posts: 46
My name is Robert At some point in my life I sent out an email with a typo spelling my name Wobert, yeah I was probably drunk.
It stuck though and I use it in real life sometimes.
Like when my food order is ready the person goes "Order for Wo... Wo... Wo.... Wobert?"
Gets em every time.
It stuck though and I use it in real life sometimes.
Like when my food order is ready the person goes "Order for Wo... Wo... Wo.... Wobert?"
Gets em every time.
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Join Date: Jul 2013
Posts: 565
Great thread! I am also always curious about what's behind the usernames. What's in a name? Often quite a lot!
Spiders love me. They always have. Sometimes they crawl right up to me and seem to stare right at me. Many people have witnessed this.
One day long ago, someone dear to me decided I was actually their queen and just didn't know it.
SQ
Spiders love me. They always have. Sometimes they crawl right up to me and seem to stare right at me. Many people have witnessed this.
One day long ago, someone dear to me decided I was actually their queen and just didn't know it.
SQ
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Location: Midwest
Posts: 1,217
When I joined I was torn about my future and quitting. I have a drinking husband and family so I was torn on what to do and felt I had to pick one or the other. Once I’m in the clear a few years I imagine I’ll change my handle. I was in a pretty black and white spot when I joined and I know it doesn’t need to be even when I’m starting over.
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Join Date: Jan 2012
Location: West Tn
Posts: 3,043
I'm sober, hence the first part of my moniker, Sober.
And my initials are CAH.
I have had 2 names in my life (due to adoption) and I've had CAH as my initials both times.
As for my picture and the quote at the bottom of my post, my favorite author, by far, is Ernest Hemingway.
We even have a Hemingway room in our home.
My favorite playwright is Tennessee Williams.
Both alcoholics and both residents of my favorite place on the planet - Key West.
And my initials are CAH.
I have had 2 names in my life (due to adoption) and I've had CAH as my initials both times.
As for my picture and the quote at the bottom of my post, my favorite author, by far, is Ernest Hemingway.
We even have a Hemingway room in our home.
My favorite playwright is Tennessee Williams.
Both alcoholics and both residents of my favorite place on the planet - Key West.
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Join Date: Nov 2007
Location: MO
Posts: 46
Most people think I can't spell engineer.
Quite the contrary, I am an audio engineer. I've spent the majority of my career using my ears mixing music in the studio or at live concerts.
Hence, I am an Engin-ear.
Quite the contrary, I am an audio engineer. I've spent the majority of my career using my ears mixing music in the studio or at live concerts.
Hence, I am an Engin-ear.
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Posts: 3,974
I was in therapy at the time I joined SR. One of the discoveries about myself was I was living my life in fear, and alcohol was a way of escaping and dealing with that fear. I decided I wanted to get sober once and for all before my 50th birthday and start living more fearlessly.
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