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Old 02-05-2019, 12:05 PM
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Seeking Treatment Tomorrow, Sick and Tired of being Addicted

Hello all,

I've been a member of this forum for a few years and used to be a regular poster. However, I stopped posting when I started using again although I do pop in and lurk periodically. So I relapsed and have been using opiate painkillers in rapidly increasing amounts for the last few years.

I've tried to kick it myself a couple of times by preparing a box of supplies and taking time off work but I've always ended up relapsing after a couple of days when the withdrawal symptoms are peaking. I also went to the doctors to try and taper myself off but ended up using what I was prescribed on top of what I'd normally use. Typical addict fashion.

So I know I can't detox by myself and I also know I can't taper off the meds. I also can't afford to go to an inpatient rehab and I'm unlikely to get a place in a residential government funded rehab.

I've spent the last week sorting things out. I've arranged to see a counselor and will be having my first session tomorrow afternoon. This will be followed by an appointment with the local drug service team who can do opiate prescribing as I feel that this may be the best option for me at present although the ultimate goal is complete abstinence.

I'm also planning on getting back into NA meetings as soon as I can.

Thanks for reading.

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Old 02-05-2019, 12:12 PM
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Natom, I'm glad to hear from you.

It sounds like you're ready to do this. I'm glad you plan to see a therapist for support and a drug service team. Keep posting and let us know how you are doing.
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Old 02-05-2019, 12:35 PM
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Hello. It's great you're taking action for your addiction.
I'm wishing the best for you.
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Old 02-05-2019, 01:31 PM
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Old 02-05-2019, 07:04 PM
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sorry to hear you're still struggling NATom but I'm so pleased to hear you're doing something about it.

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Old 02-05-2019, 07:29 PM
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Hi Tom!

I hope this is the beginning of a permanent recovery for you. read around and post often--it works if you work it!
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Welcome back Tom! I hope this time you can achieve lasting sobriety.
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Old 02-05-2019, 08:05 PM
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I'm hoping you will stick with it this time. It takes what it takes and it takes what it takes to stay. I also became addicted to opiates and I thought and dreamed about quitting for years before it finally happened. When I asked for and let myself receive help is what made the difference. You need us and we need you. That's the way it works in my humble opinion and experience.
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Old 02-05-2019, 08:23 PM
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It's great to see you back again, Natom! You have been missed. I'm sorry it's been such a struggle but it sounds like you have a pretty workable plan.
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Old 02-05-2019, 10:31 PM
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Hope all goes well with your meetings today Natom.
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Old 02-06-2019, 01:57 AM
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Thinking of you, Tom!
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Old 02-06-2019, 09:26 AM
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Hey Tom, how lovely to hear from you.

Hope you can get the help you need. NA sounds a good place to seek that support.

Missed seeing you around xx
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Old 02-12-2019, 12:29 PM
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Hello everyone,

Thank you for all your replies. I did manage to get to a counselling session last Wednesday and I'm going to the drug services place tomorrow evening. I've started journalling which I'm finding very therapeutic. I've also had a conversation with my partner who didn't really know the extent of my issue so that's a bit of a weight off my shoulders.

Now it's just time to get the monkey off my back

I'll update this thread after I've been to the appointment tomorrow.

Thanks all,

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Thanks for the update. We are here for you and proud of the steps you are taking!
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Thanks for the update Tom. Continued best wishes

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Old 02-13-2019, 09:14 AM
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So I turned up to my local doctors surgery where the local drug and alcohol services hold a drop-in session from 5pm-7pm this evening. It took all my courage to get down here to find out the surgery is closed for training. I've tried calling the service on their 24 hour number three times but haven't had an answer.

I'm going to hang around for half an hour on the off-chance someone may come along.

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Old 02-13-2019, 09:23 AM
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Got through to them on the phone on my 5th attempt and gave them my details. I'm not sure what's going to happen from here on in but I assume someone is going to contact me. The person on the phone seemed like they were in a rush and couldn't get me off the phone fast enough.

But, it's a start!

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I'm sure that was frustrating,Tom - but you sound determined, & I know you won't give up. Wonderful to see you back.
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Really impressed by your patience and determination!
Happy to see that step by step you are getting what you want. Keep on doing it!
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Old 02-13-2019, 10:40 AM
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Originally Posted by Hevyn View Post
I'm sure that was frustrating,Tom - but you sound determined, & I know you won't give up. Wonderful to see you back.
My old sponsor once told me that I should put the same amount of effort into getting clean that I did into getting high. That's stuck with me. I'm naturally impatient, as all addicts are. But now I've started the process I have to stick with it otherwise I'll just feel worse about it. I'm getting to a 12 step meeting before the end of the week just so I can ease myself back into it.

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