14 days an **** up 😱
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Sometimes it’s better not to think about it and just do the time.
Wade through the crap and take the glimmers of hope with both hands.
Knowing one day it will be all good.
Don’t put a date/time when you think you should be better.
It takes as long as it takes because you are so worth it.
You will feel amazing when you conquer it.
Wade through the crap and take the glimmers of hope with both hands.
Knowing one day it will be all good.
Don’t put a date/time when you think you should be better.
It takes as long as it takes because you are so worth it.
You will feel amazing when you conquer it.
saoutchik
Join Date: Jan 2015
Location: London
Posts: 16,198
Hi Doris, i'm sorry you are feeling so low. I felt the same way many times.
I was 54 years old and consuming a minimum of half a bottle of proof spirit a day, (scotch whiskey) more than that at weekends. I could feel myself dying both physically on the inside and emotionally as my family left me. I didn't want to die a drunk but I was mortally afraid that was going to be my fate. In the end it was the knowledge and fear that my willpower alone was not going to be enough to beat my alcoholic cravings, nor was going to AA even though it was mostly supportive.
I chanelled my willpower into getting up stupidly early, running and walking for at least an hour before going to work. Result - I would fall into bed at 9.30pm and dodge the worst of by whiskey cravings. That effort in the morning gave me something to draw on in the evening when I most needed it.
Different people have different drinking profiles but if you identify when your cravings are at their worst then think of a way or a change in your routine that means you spend less time in the cravings "firing line" so to speak that is loading the dice in your favour. You gotta look into yourself to find the thing that works.
You can do it Doris.
I was 54 years old and consuming a minimum of half a bottle of proof spirit a day, (scotch whiskey) more than that at weekends. I could feel myself dying both physically on the inside and emotionally as my family left me. I didn't want to die a drunk but I was mortally afraid that was going to be my fate. In the end it was the knowledge and fear that my willpower alone was not going to be enough to beat my alcoholic cravings, nor was going to AA even though it was mostly supportive.
I chanelled my willpower into getting up stupidly early, running and walking for at least an hour before going to work. Result - I would fall into bed at 9.30pm and dodge the worst of by whiskey cravings. That effort in the morning gave me something to draw on in the evening when I most needed it.
Different people have different drinking profiles but if you identify when your cravings are at their worst then think of a way or a change in your routine that means you spend less time in the cravings "firing line" so to speak that is loading the dice in your favour. You gotta look into yourself to find the thing that works.
You can do it Doris.
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hi Doris
many of us have been there - you're not alone
For me the key was posting here before I drank or drugged again.
It was the hardest thing to do - sometimes part of me (the addicted part) absolutely hated the thought of not being effed up...but I wanted change more.
I had to stop thinking 'why me' or 'woe is me' and use that energy to find ways to get sober.
You've said AA's not for you, ok.
as decchemist said - what is? Have you thought of other face to face meetings things like SMART recovery or Lifering? or non meeting based approaches like AVRT? tried online meetings?
Seen a Dr, counsellor, or local alcohol support groups?
https://www.nhs.uk/service-search/Al...ionSearch/1805
looking into inpatient or outpatient rehab?
I'm not pushing any one option, just suggesting that if you haven't actually physically tried any of these things there's still many other roads to take
2 weeks is great Doris. I can remember when 2 weeks seemed like a fantasy - now comes the next phase - tuning that two week stretch into something permanent.
I believe you can do this
D
many of us have been there - you're not alone
For me the key was posting here before I drank or drugged again.
It was the hardest thing to do - sometimes part of me (the addicted part) absolutely hated the thought of not being effed up...but I wanted change more.
I had to stop thinking 'why me' or 'woe is me' and use that energy to find ways to get sober.
You've said AA's not for you, ok.
as decchemist said - what is? Have you thought of other face to face meetings things like SMART recovery or Lifering? or non meeting based approaches like AVRT? tried online meetings?
Seen a Dr, counsellor, or local alcohol support groups?
https://www.nhs.uk/service-search/Al...ionSearch/1805
looking into inpatient or outpatient rehab?
I'm not pushing any one option, just suggesting that if you haven't actually physically tried any of these things there's still many other roads to take
2 weeks is great Doris. I can remember when 2 weeks seemed like a fantasy - now comes the next phase - tuning that two week stretch into something permanent.
I believe you can do this
D
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Originally Posted by Purplrks3647 
Hi Doris! Sending you lots of hugs....sorry I didn't see your thread 'til today. Glad to see you post this morning 
You know the saying "We all fall down in life....the question is who gets back up"
You know the saying "We all fall down in life....the question is who gets back up"
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Originally Posted by Doris47
I just cant do it, 'm maybe we are all meaning to be saved
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Originally Posted by Taooo
I really hope you make it doris47. Everybody has weak moments and falls to a crutch, we just gotta change our form of relaxation to something different.
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