Hi! New to this forum.
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Hi! New to this forum.
Hi everyone! This is my first time posting. I’m so thankful I found this site. I have had a drinking problem for the past 3 years. It started out with just heavy drinking on the weekends. Which then progressed into drinking every night after work. I then had a year where I hit my worst point. I was drinking daily, all day. Functional (so I thought) I never got in trouble at work, never had a DUI, never got arrested but I most definitely should have . At my worst point I was drinking a bottle of vodka a day. I quit that about 9 months ago, since then I’ve relapsed more than I can count. Typical alcoholic mentality of “ I can just have a few beers” which then turns into 7 or 8. “ I can just have a few glasses of wine” which turns into 2 bottles. I’m sick of waking up hungover everyday, I’m scared of losing my family and loved ones., embarrassing myself on social media and in public. I’m just sick of all of it. I’ve tried AA I went to a few meetings a week for a month and I just couldn’t connect. I felt nervous and anxious the entire time. I live in a very small town and there are not many options as far as meetings go. So I’m joining this group for support and suggestions. Today is my third day completely sober and I’m feeling happy and confident but I know how quickly that feeling can go away.
Welcome to SoberRecovery, PunkRock Latte ~ I love that name! 
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Welcome! You will find a lot of support here. I don’t do AA either — You have to do what works for you. Just stick around, keep posting, and don’t drink. Have you looked at the January support thread?
Anyway, glad to have you on board.
Anyway, glad to have you on board.
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Hello and welcome. I'm glad you're here.
I could never moderate, either. My drinking escalated like yours until it was totally out of control.
I never got a DUI or lost a job either, but I was a raving drunk every chance I got.
You're not alone. I've been sober now for ten years, and I was a bad drunk at the end.
You can do it, too. It may take help but you can do it.
And you'll find a lot of support here, so welcome again, and stick around.
Best to you.
I could never moderate, either. My drinking escalated like yours until it was totally out of control.
I never got a DUI or lost a job either, but I was a raving drunk every chance I got.
You're not alone. I've been sober now for ten years, and I was a bad drunk at the end.
You can do it, too. It may take help but you can do it.
And you'll find a lot of support here, so welcome again, and stick around.
Best to you.
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Great to have you with us, PunkRockLatte. We are here to encourage & support you. Congratulations on your 3rd day sober. It feels so good to get free.
5329guy - It's wonderful to have you here, too. Be proud of taking this vital step towards a better life.
You can do it.
5329guy - It's wonderful to have you here, too. Be proud of taking this vital step towards a better life.
You can do it.
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Welcome PunkRock Day 3 for me too
Another member on created a thread with links to recovery plans. I've just started looking through one myself and so far so good 👍
Good luck! Not going to be easy for it but plenty we can do to prevent any relapse.
Day 3 for me too Another member on created a thread with links to recovery plans. I've just started looking through one myself and so far so good 👍
Good luck! Not going to be easy for it but plenty we can do to prevent any relapse.
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it would help if I posted the link! Lol
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ery-plans.html (Psst...wanna know why I'm always recommending recovery plans?)
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ery-plans.html (Psst...wanna know why I'm always recommending recovery plans?)
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Moderation didn't work for me and I tried more times than I can count. I mean it worked for one, or two, or 3 times but then I'd be right back i to getting sh%tfaced which lead to driving etc. I was what you could call a functional alcoholic but damn I cant say I didn't have problems. I was a crappy person even if I never got in any fights, or had a divorce, or slept on the couch... but I wasnt a good person. I had plenty of wake up calls that never woke me up. Luckily the rock bottom that I hit could probably be deeper if I tried, but I dont worry about that. I worry about what I can control now and how I can better myself each day. I can tell you each day is not unicorns and butterflies but it's better than drinking. Drinking numbed me from life and any and all feelings I had. So it took a while to adjust to feeling again. But I'd rather face things sober than drunk. Just add one more day sober. Just get through today sober and worry about tomorrow, tomorrow. Just tell yourself to just get through now. Tomorrow will come in 24 hours each and every day. But it's this hour, this minute, this second that you control.
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Welcome. You came to the right place. I am only on day 17. This website has helped me immensely. Just keep coming back. Don't give into the cravings. They will come at the strangest moments. I was the same as you, functioning. Went to work everyday, cooked, cleaned, bring home the bacon....I was slowly killing myself. Drinking poison on a daily basis will do that to a person. Remember alcohol is poison. It will eventually kill you.
Sober is the New Black ;-)
Sober is the New Black ;-)
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Welcome PunkRockLatte! If you wish, you're invited to join the January 2019 page. I started on January 1 and it is a great group of supportive people.
I thought I was "functioning alcoholic" even though I blew every paycheck on alcohol and eating out. But I still had a job and did the minimum to keep it. Except, that stopped working. SR has really helped me; so, welcome!
I thought I was "functioning alcoholic" even though I blew every paycheck on alcohol and eating out. But I still had a job and did the minimum to keep it. Except, that stopped working. SR has really helped me; so, welcome!
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Join Date: Jan 2019
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Thank you everyone for the welcome. So far I’ve managed to stay sober but it hasn’t been easy. I feel like my biggest trigger is boredom. I’ve been trying to stay busy to keep my mind off of things and going to bed early because of course once 9pm rolls around my mind goes straight to wanting a drink to chill out from the day.
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Originally Posted by PunkRockLatte 
Thank you everyone for the welcome. So far I’ve managed to stay sober but it hasn’t been easy. I feel like my biggest trigger is boredom. I’ve been trying to stay busy to keep my mind off of things and going to bed early because of course once 9pm rolls around my mind goes straight to wanting a drink to chill out from the day.
Tough it out. It is worth it.
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Originally Posted by PunkRockLatte
Thank you everyone for the welcome. So far I’ve managed to stay sober but it hasn’t been easy. I feel like my biggest trigger is boredom. I’ve been trying to stay busy to keep my mind off of things and going to bed early because of course once 9pm rolls around my mind goes straight to wanting a drink to chill out from the day.
Boredom's something a lot of us face.
I dunno about you but drinking rotted my imagination away. All I needed to do for years was open a bottle.
Take that away and I had no idea what to do to amuse myself...but I soon learned again and so can you
Here are some ideas to start you off, maybe?
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ething-do.html (Looking For Something To Do?)
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