Meraviglioso

Enough is enough. it is true that I blame everyone else for my problems. I am stuck in a cycle and don't know how to get out. I talk about this with my psychologist. I first came to Italy, 13 years ago because I felt I wasn't "good enough" I needed to learn another language, experience another culture. I hoped to gain that and return to the US "more special" and get on with life. I ended up pregnant and here I am. I separated from my ex because he didn't love me, he constantly went out with other women and I couldn't deal. But I have totally failed to make a life for me here in Italy. I am miserable, alone, depressed. I can't find a job, a man, a life..... And so woe is me I drink. Enough. I have had enough. First things first no drinking. Next, I will create a life worth living. One memory, allow me this. a woman was marrying a prince, the wedding of the year. She CALLED me and said "please Mera will you dance, you light up the dance floor when you dance" I agreed.