Kdon853

Just leave me I alone I’ll be ok . I said that for 25 yrs to the wife, kids , work etc just leave me alone. Then they all did. That’s what I wanted drank everyday was falling fast why didn’t anyone care? I pushed them all away. Put the drink down got back into the human race, takes hardwork and discipline, I use AA but there are others ways. As I tell people it just gets better , can’t really explain it but it does.

Hevyn

Thanks for a heartfelt & helpful post, Kdon. I behaved the same as you for decades. It's awful that we often have to lose so much before seeing the light, but I'm thankful you've reclaimed your life.

least

I pushed everyone away too. It took some time to regain their trust, but it did get better.

kiki26

Fearlessat50

Thank you, Kdon. I am so glad it did not take me losing everything to get sober. Many close calls. It could have easily happened and would have, I’m sure, if I had continued drinking. Stories like yours and others here inspire me to stay on the sober path for good or risk someday losing it all.

fgo

I had to bump this back up to the front page.
For someone reading it for the first time. or hasnt gotten there yet.
it's worth understanding. Its a simple but powerful post

D122y

Kdon,

I explain it with science. As the brain heals and rewires we begin to develop proper neuro pathways and dopamine production.

Life gets easier and we are happy for no reason more often.

I manage to get really happy these days even when faced with ongoing frustration for work etc.

It took nearly 4 years without an intoxication to get here. Many folks never get to experience this natural healing due to relapse etc.

We here at SR are luck to have found this place.

Thanks.

listae

Yup, I said that over and over. All I wanted was to be myself with my bottle of wine. I pushed so many good people away and wasted 25 years of my life. Alcohol made me miserably lonely.

Snowydelrico

Well observed.
I used to say it a lot too.
As do my alcoholic friends.
As did my divorced uncle who sits enslaved in a room alone with a bottle of rum and says ‘ I have no one to answer to, I do what I want’

Well done for getting free