Heart stress test tomorrow. Drank today and can't go to AA
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So glad to hear all went well. I was on SR awhile ago I had to change user name because I forgot mine. Anyways I got sober around the time u joined. Have been checking in too see how u are... if I can quit so can you... I had to hit my bottom and boy did I, but so glad I got arrested, my husband of 23 years kicked me out all family disowned me and verge of losing 20 yr job. But all finally clicked and it’s amazing Sweets.
Heya Sweetichick
This post reminded me of something - how I would stop drinking for one day, two days, five days, a couple weeks. For years I did that. Well, over some years. There were many years where I maybe got one day that year, and others where I had a sprinkling of various amounts of time.
When I really got sober I realized that in addition to everything else, I was forcing myself to repeat the (physically) worst part of recovery over and over by doing that. That split second decision you’re talking about isn’t really split second (as you said above) but almost like counting the time towards the excuse. It’s part of the racing mind early on. It’s another world in many ways when you get past it. Getting past it involves the plan. The plan to kick the (planned) excuse to the curb, that is.
Anyway I hope your test went well, and I hope you start again today. Always rooting for you. xo-b
This post reminded me of something - how I would stop drinking for one day, two days, five days, a couple weeks. For years I did that. Well, over some years. There were many years where I maybe got one day that year, and others where I had a sprinkling of various amounts of time.
When I really got sober I realized that in addition to everything else, I was forcing myself to repeat the (physically) worst part of recovery over and over by doing that. That split second decision you’re talking about isn’t really split second (as you said above) but almost like counting the time towards the excuse. It’s part of the racing mind early on. It’s another world in many ways when you get past it. Getting past it involves the plan. The plan to kick the (planned) excuse to the curb, that is.
Anyway I hope your test went well, and I hope you start again today. Always rooting for you. xo-b
Thanks Bexxed for your continued support. I am not allowed to go out tonight but have to rest. The whole thing took over 2 hours. Back to a meeting tomorrow night though. I am so happy nothing is wrong. I got away with everything so far just have to manage my diabetes better. A great 2019 awaits.
What can you do differently this time? For a start, can you answer the questions posed to you here on this thread about what happened to your plan for detox? I recall you saying the rehab was going to be delayed, but you have not commented further about detox. Next, do you think this time you can stay a little more active and involved on SR for a start? Keep posting, even when you start to hit a stride. Even just reporting on your day or reaching out if you are starting to feel bad about something. What about starting to put together a plan for your next payday now, instead of waiting until it is nearly upon you to start worrying?
We all know this is hard, trust me. You can do this if you DO the work. We\re here to support you.
I know the feeling, I had my tests done back in May, it does feel good knowing everything is good. I still had a bad aortic valve that I had replaced in June. It was purely genetic, not related to my alchohol abuse or diet. Recovery time would have been a lot longer with bypass thrown in
Hey, Sweeti. I am glad you had good news from the doc so perhaps you can use this to jump-start your sobriety with the confidence that you can have a healthy life-which you certainly can-if you just
lay off the booze. Please look into rehab and detox options--I needed lots of help to quit and inpatient rehab was part of it. It was the best thing I'd done for myself, even though I was very against going at the start. There has been lots of great advice here and much love being shown you, Sweeti. We get it, we feel for you and our fond desire is for you to get better and have a decent, dignified and fun life without the poison of alcohol. All the best.
lay off the booze. Please look into rehab and detox options--I needed lots of help to quit and inpatient rehab was part of it. It was the best thing I'd done for myself, even though I was very against going at the start. There has been lots of great advice here and much love being shown you, Sweeti. We get it, we feel for you and our fond desire is for you to get better and have a decent, dignified and fun life without the poison of alcohol. All the best.
I gotta second this sweeti. All of the following is said with care and concern and out of the desire to support you. You have a pattern of coming and posting (great, really) when there is some sort of crisis (boyfriend, ex-boyfriend, death, daughter, health, house issues) and talking about how you drank over it. You then pull yourself out and report on the days sober you have. Various people come to offer advice and ask specific questions about your recovery plan, which you generally ignore and then disappear for a few days, coming back only when a new crisis hits.
What can you do differently this time? For a start, can you answer the questions posed to you here on this thread about what happened to your plan for detox? I recall you saying the rehab was going to be delayed, but you have not commented further about detox. Next, do you think this time you can stay a little more active and involved on SR for a start? Keep posting, even when you start to hit a stride. Even just reporting on your day or reaching out if you are starting to feel bad about something. What about starting to put together a plan for your next payday now, instead of waiting until it is nearly upon you to start worrying?
We all know this is hard, trust me. You can do this if you DO the work. We\re here to support you.
What can you do differently this time? For a start, can you answer the questions posed to you here on this thread about what happened to your plan for detox? I recall you saying the rehab was going to be delayed, but you have not commented further about detox. Next, do you think this time you can stay a little more active and involved on SR for a start? Keep posting, even when you start to hit a stride. Even just reporting on your day or reaching out if you are starting to feel bad about something. What about starting to put together a plan for your next payday now, instead of waiting until it is nearly upon you to start worrying?
We all know this is hard, trust me. You can do this if you DO the work. We\re here to support you.
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Why is that?
Edit: for every 'reason' you've said you "can't go.." I/we could pull up multiple threads,from you, on why you SHOULD go... Not trying to be an ass,but..own your choice(s) one way or the other. I didn't get sober by placing blame,so all I know is owning MY stuff..
Edit: for every 'reason' you've said you "can't go.." I/we could pull up multiple threads,from you, on why you SHOULD go... Not trying to be an ass,but..own your choice(s) one way or the other. I didn't get sober by placing blame,so all I know is owning MY stuff..
Why is that?
Edit: for every 'reason' you've said you "can't go.." I/we could pull up multiple threads,from you, on why you SHOULD go... Not trying to be an ass,but..own your choice(s) one way or the other. I didn't get sober by placing blame,so all I know is owning MY stuff..
Edit: for every 'reason' you've said you "can't go.." I/we could pull up multiple threads,from you, on why you SHOULD go... Not trying to be an ass,but..own your choice(s) one way or the other. I didn't get sober by placing blame,so all I know is owning MY stuff..
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