good night feel crap
 

its a new year just went to a party sober people there had a great night everything turned out ok managed to get home safe ....home sober and safe you think id be happy about that my husband is playing his game am online but right now i just want to ended it i want heroin its not going to happen ill never get it i know no one to get it from but because i cant get it i feel suicidal i should go to bed i get crazy the longer i stay up
my mental health get worse as the night goes on go to bed now i should say to myself .....i rarely listen to my own advice can i blade or something please ?

Honestly, I think the best thing is to go to bed.

I really hope you'll look for help after the holidays, SerenityRiver.
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Dear SR,

big big hugs to you. You are home. You are in bed. You are safe . Just try to get some sleep. Rest, pray, serenity prayer always helps me. This too shall pass . If you can't sleep stay close to SR. Lots of love to you

tomorrow will be a new day...a better day....

I hope you feel better today, Serenity.