I'm currently in Hell...
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I'm currently in Hell...
...and I want to get out of it as soon as I can.
My plan is to read regularly on here for support as this is an amazing place for that and you guys are all fantastic support. My doctor is also supporting me.
I guess I could say I don't know what went wrong but I do know exactly what went wtong - I picked up that first drink during mid summer. I had been alcohol free and so happy but my addiction took over again.
Wow, even with physical symptoms I carried on these last few months. That's terrible.
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My plan is to read regularly on here for support as this is an amazing place for that and you guys are all fantastic support. My doctor is also supporting me.
I guess I could say I don't know what went wrong but I do know exactly what went wtong - I picked up that first drink during mid summer. I had been alcohol free and so happy but my addiction took over again.
Wow, even with physical symptoms I carried on these last few months. That's terrible.
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Welcome back carpet cleaner. Glad to hear you've been working with your doctor, and you will definitely find support and understanding here. It is pretty scary how quickly things go from good to horrible when we pick up a drink, I'm glad you realize the gravity of your decision to have that first one.
Yep, it's that first one. I'm glad you realize that. I carried on for long periods of time, after periods of sobriety, after taking that first drink.
Glad you're getting support, and of course you'll always find us here.
Best to you.
Glad you're getting support, and of course you'll always find us here.
Best to you.
Each time I picked up, after a period of sobriety, my drinking was much worse.
At this point, I know I won't survive another drink. I must stay present. There are lots of reasons to live sober. Doesn't always have to be pleasant, but at times it simply feels just soothing to sit and not be drunk.
At this point, I know I won't survive another drink. I must stay present. There are lots of reasons to live sober. Doesn't always have to be pleasant, but at times it simply feels just soothing to sit and not be drunk.
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Thank you all so much for your encouraging words. I'm truly grateful.
I'm at that fork and I'm going to take the right one.
Am 43 now and much of my life has been wasted due to drinking. What a complete and utter waste.
Wow, typing this out has me in tears. I'm so glad I'm back on SR.
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I'm at that fork and I'm going to take the right one.
Am 43 now and much of my life has been wasted due to drinking. What a complete and utter waste.
Wow, typing this out has me in tears. I'm so glad I'm back on SR.
CC
Thank you all so much for your encouraging words. I'm truly grateful.
I'm at that fork and I'm going to take the right one.
Am 43 now and much of my life has been wasted due to drinking. What a complete and utter waste.
Wow, typing this out has me in tears. I'm so glad I'm back on SR.
CC
I'm at that fork and I'm going to take the right one.
Am 43 now and much of my life has been wasted due to drinking. What a complete and utter waste.
Wow, typing this out has me in tears. I'm so glad I'm back on SR.
CC
It's never too late. Don't think about the years past, think about the rest of your life. The first day of which is ... today.
Welcome back!!! I was 45 when I finally stopped for good, and it was so worth it. Just think, you can go into the new year with over a week or sobriety under your belt, and have a completely sober 2019.
I know you can do this!!!
I know you can do this!!!
............but the other side is "nearly" heaven. The best part is you really never have to go through this again. Ultimately, though we can complicate it large and small, it is a matter of just not putting it in our system again. Why would we?
I'm currently in Hell...
It sounds like you drove yourself there.
Good for you realizing that you need the help of others in finding your way back.
I wasted a lot of years trying to find my way back by myself. When I finally gave up trying to do it by myself, sobriety was much easier to achieve.
Welcome back!
It sounds like you drove yourself there.
Good for you realizing that you need the help of others in finding your way back.
I wasted a lot of years trying to find my way back by myself. When I finally gave up trying to do it by myself, sobriety was much easier to achieve.
Welcome back!
Like others have said, life is so much better without the drink, and each time we go back to it, that drink takes a little more out of us, our self esteem, our health and happiness, and our freedom.
Be free from the prison of drinking, you are never too old, too weak, or too broken. I was 48 and I'm never going back! Bless you on your journey, and everyone here will help you on along the way.
Be free from the prison of drinking, you are never too old, too weak, or too broken. I was 48 and I'm never going back! Bless you on your journey, and everyone here will help you on along the way.
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Thank you everyone, I appreciate all your wonderful words.
I really can't get any lower with this Found myself drinking at 9.30am yesterday which is far from a first for me too. Not being able to take my child to visit family before Xmas. Just drinking whilst he watched TV. Utterly appalling.
I've decided if I don't do something about this finally now, it's going to kill me.
Thank you everyone for being there.
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I really can't get any lower with this Found myself drinking at 9.30am yesterday which is far from a first for me too. Not being able to take my child to visit family before Xmas. Just drinking whilst he watched TV. Utterly appalling.
I've decided if I don't do something about this finally now, it's going to kill me.
Thank you everyone for being there.
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