ugh... I’m at 45 days today and the party season is tempting me. Last night at dinner I really wanted a glass of wine. Road it out and seriously ten minutes later I was perfectly fine with my sparky water and fresh lime. It’s hitting me again right now. We are getting ready to go to a Christmas party. My ritual was always to have a “dressing drink” while getting ready which is nothing more than code for pregaming while putting on eyeliner and mascara. Glamourizing the drink, I guess.

So here I sit, determined not to ruin what I’ve worked so hard to accomplish, just for a few more hours until bed. Focusing on waking up without wondering how disappointed and or pissed off my husband is and with the energy and stamina to make it to the gym and get some good, healthy endorphins flowing.

and to know that I am stronger than the beast. FU beast. FU.

ok... feeling a bit better. Thank you SR for the forum to speak so honestly bc I really, really want a drink in my hand rather than my iPhone right now.

Thanks for the good feedback! I was perfectly fine with my sparkly water and lime. I’m amazed at how tired I am by 10pm when I don’t drink. Healthy tired and ready for a good night sleep.

grateful!