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Originally Posted by wetbrain 
I have said "I will never drink again" maybe around 40-60 times but I feel this time is different.
What are you going to do differently this time?
This calendar needs to be a reminder to me of how bad this month of binging alcohol and drugs, was and I am going to keep it for the whole year.
Originally Posted by wetbrain
Because like EddieBuckle said I am a pickle not a ******* cucumber. I will get 3 months sober and think I can have a casual drink with friends but that is a lie. It will end with me in a dark room of littered beer cans wondering how i let this **** happen again.
I was drinking a glass of red wine (remember, 'normie' period) and I asked one guy if it was OK if I drank in front of him. He said "Sure. Because I'm absolutely certain that beyond a shadow of a doubt that I could join you and it would be nice and tasteful and enjoyable. However within ten days I'll be locked in a hotel room with a few 8 balls of coke and a bag of smack, watching porn alone in the dark because even the hookers couldn't stand to be around me."
When I finally got Step 1, I thought of that statement, it was very helpful. My slide probably wouldn't be quite as dire as his, but just as inevitable.
Yours will be too.
I'm not powerless over alcohol, as long as i don't take that first sip. At that point it's game over. So I can never have another drink again. Period.
Beautiful in it's simplicity. Once I got that and got beyond my horrific detox, about 6 months in, sobriety became pretty simple. Don't drink. Ever.
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Originally Posted by MindfulMan
How?
What are you going to do differently this time?
This calendar needs to be a reminder to me of how bad this month of binging alcohol and drugs, was and I am going to keep it for the whole year.
In one of my "normie" periods I had a roommate that was in recovery, had her 5 year sober birthday. She and her friends were all poor little rich kids that had trust funds and stuff. Because they didn't have to work it was very hard for all of them to get sober.
I was drinking a glass of red wine (remember, 'normie' period) and I asked one guy if it was OK if I drank in front of him. He said "Sure. Because I'm absolutely certain that beyond a shadow of a doubt that I could join you and it would be nice and tasteful and enjoyable. However within ten days I'll be locked in a hotel room with a few 8 balls of coke and a bag of smack, watching porn alone in the dark because even the hookers couldn't stand to be around me."
When I finally got Step 1, I thought of that statement, it was very helpful. My slide probably wouldn't be quite as dire as his, but just as inevitable.
Yours will be too.
I'm not powerless over alcohol, as long as i don't take that first sip. At that point it's game over. So I can never have another drink again. Period.
Beautiful in it's simplicity. Once I got that and got beyond my horrific detox, about 6 months in, sobriety became pretty simple. Don't drink. Ever.
What are you going to do differently this time?
This calendar needs to be a reminder to me of how bad this month of binging alcohol and drugs, was and I am going to keep it for the whole year.
In one of my "normie" periods I had a roommate that was in recovery, had her 5 year sober birthday. She and her friends were all poor little rich kids that had trust funds and stuff. Because they didn't have to work it was very hard for all of them to get sober.
I was drinking a glass of red wine (remember, 'normie' period) and I asked one guy if it was OK if I drank in front of him. He said "Sure. Because I'm absolutely certain that beyond a shadow of a doubt that I could join you and it would be nice and tasteful and enjoyable. However within ten days I'll be locked in a hotel room with a few 8 balls of coke and a bag of smack, watching porn alone in the dark because even the hookers couldn't stand to be around me."
When I finally got Step 1, I thought of that statement, it was very helpful. My slide probably wouldn't be quite as dire as his, but just as inevitable.
Yours will be too.
I'm not powerless over alcohol, as long as i don't take that first sip. At that point it's game over. So I can never have another drink again. Period.
Beautiful in it's simplicity. Once I got that and got beyond my horrific detox, about 6 months in, sobriety became pretty simple. Don't drink. Ever.
I cannot wait to eat food again!!!!!
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Currently binge watching Seinfeld still. Such an amazing show to watch if you are going through alcohol withdrawals. Practically zero alcohol related humor throughout the show, its really quite amazing. In one of the episodes when Jerry and George are meeting with Elaine and her dad they get there before Elaine shows up and Elaine's dad is intimidating as hell writer drinking scotch on the rocks and he asks if they want something to drink and Jerry orders a cranberry with 2 limes and George orders a soda water I believe.
IDK man I am so thankful to get to rewatch this show and even though I remember a lot of the episodes so far ( Currently in season 3 episode 8) It still feels like something new because of all the years of alcohol abuse and my memory being **** because of it, plus I actually watched this show when I was younger but periodically whenever I saw it on cable through my adult life as well.
On another note like I said in the above post. I still have not been able to eat and I have to be super careful with the low sodium chicken broth I bought because it is spiking my blood pressure like crazy, I have still been drinking water like its no tomorrow and have already been through an entire gallon of alo vera juice.
IDK man I am so thankful to get to rewatch this show and even though I remember a lot of the episodes so far ( Currently in season 3 episode 8) It still feels like something new because of all the years of alcohol abuse and my memory being **** because of it, plus I actually watched this show when I was younger but periodically whenever I saw it on cable through my adult life as well.
On another note like I said in the above post. I still have not been able to eat and I have to be super careful with the low sodium chicken broth I bought because it is spiking my blood pressure like crazy, I have still been drinking water like its no tomorrow and have already been through an entire gallon of alo vera juice.
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Originally Posted by Eddiebuckle
Hi WB,
The first few weeks are really rough in terms of memory and ability to think clearly. This gets better over time, don't lose hope if you have a thought and immediately after cannot remember what it was you wanted to say or do.
When I finally quit drinking nine years ago, I was certain that I had destroyed my life and would spend the rest of my days miserably wanting to drink. Happily, nothing could be farther from the truth - it took conscious effort every day at first, but sobriety became my new normal. My health, my career, and relationships are strong - which was never the case while I was drinking. I am now happily married for four years to a fabulous woman... something I never expected (I was a 43 year old bachelor when I quit, which is to say no woman with a two digit IQ would think of marrying me back then).
The most important thing? You need to do this every day - your addiction does not go into remission. A lot of folks once they get a little time under their belts and start feeling better fall into the trap of "I'll just have a couple on this one occasion" Alcoholics are like pickles... we start as cucumbers but once we cross that line into alcoholism can never become a cucumber again, no matter how hard we try.
Another thing that seems to separate those that "make it" from those who do not: I do not know anyone who has long term sobriety who did it completely on their own. Surround yourself with like minded (ie Sober with a capital S) people and do what they did to get sober. Go to a therapist, AA or other groups, SR, whatever makes sense and works for you, but don't isolate... addiction is a disease of loneliness that we attempt to cure with isolation.
Good luck, and keep posting!
The first few weeks are really rough in terms of memory and ability to think clearly. This gets better over time, don't lose hope if you have a thought and immediately after cannot remember what it was you wanted to say or do.
When I finally quit drinking nine years ago, I was certain that I had destroyed my life and would spend the rest of my days miserably wanting to drink. Happily, nothing could be farther from the truth - it took conscious effort every day at first, but sobriety became my new normal. My health, my career, and relationships are strong - which was never the case while I was drinking. I am now happily married for four years to a fabulous woman... something I never expected (I was a 43 year old bachelor when I quit, which is to say no woman with a two digit IQ would think of marrying me back then).
The most important thing? You need to do this every day - your addiction does not go into remission. A lot of folks once they get a little time under their belts and start feeling better fall into the trap of "I'll just have a couple on this one occasion" Alcoholics are like pickles... we start as cucumbers but once we cross that line into alcoholism can never become a cucumber again, no matter how hard we try.
Another thing that seems to separate those that "make it" from those who do not: I do not know anyone who has long term sobriety who did it completely on their own. Surround yourself with like minded (ie Sober with a capital S) people and do what they did to get sober. Go to a therapist, AA or other groups, SR, whatever makes sense and works for you, but don't isolate... addiction is a disease of loneliness that we attempt to cure with isolation.
Good luck, and keep posting!
Thank you so much for this quote. My real name is actually Dylan and the love of my life niece calls me uncle dill pickle
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