Over And Over
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Join Date: Jun 2013
Location: Big City
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Originally Posted by UhOh 
She’ll never see this, I’m aware and I’m not trying to break hearts, I just want to get it out.
To my wife:
I’m sorry for any pain and suffering I’ve caused you, the kids or anyone else. I’m sorry for making you think, even for a split second that I don’t love you. I’m sorry if you think I forgot about “us”. Im sorry I haven’t been myself. I’m sorry for being stressed or frustrated. I’m sorry for being such a perfectionist about everything except my own flaws. I’m sorry for not changing when I’ve said many times that I would. Im sorry for everything I’ve said, done, didn’t say or didn’t do. I could go on forever... I’m sorry. I’m sorry for everything.
To my wife:
I’m sorry for any pain and suffering I’ve caused you, the kids or anyone else. I’m sorry for making you think, even for a split second that I don’t love you. I’m sorry if you think I forgot about “us”. Im sorry I haven’t been myself. I’m sorry for being stressed or frustrated. I’m sorry for being such a perfectionist about everything except my own flaws. I’m sorry for not changing when I’ve said many times that I would. Im sorry for everything I’ve said, done, didn’t say or didn’t do. I could go on forever... I’m sorry. I’m sorry for everything.
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Sober Me; wouldn't even tell my wife/gf/family/friends what you wrote. I'd show it with actions and change.
Drinking me; would tell them,yet again, I was 'going to try to change' and then hit some meetings,take some 'time off' drinking,ect to appease the masses and then continue doing what I want to do, with zero regard for others.
The choice is yours,just the same as it was mine.
Drinking me; would tell them,yet again, I was 'going to try to change' and then hit some meetings,take some 'time off' drinking,ect to appease the masses and then continue doing what I want to do, with zero regard for others.
The choice is yours,just the same as it was mine.
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Join Date: May 2012
Location: Wisconsin, USA
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Originally Posted by Bobbieka
Hey. Are you okay?
But please let us know things are OK and you aren't planning anything rash...your post has people worried here - me included.
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Join Date: Apr 2010
Location: New York
Posts: 35,731
You have the power to change, UhOh.
Do anything it takes to free yourself. I spent many years waiting for someone or something to do it for me. Never happened. Take control ... you CAN do this. I found support made a big difference for me. Is rehab an option for you?
Do anything it takes to free yourself. I spent many years waiting for someone or something to do it for me. Never happened. Take control ... you CAN do this. I found support made a big difference for me. Is rehab an option for you?
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Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
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H ow are you doing uh oh? Check in so we know you're ok
Look around - there many many of us who are securely sober and happy about it
None of us is particularly special. We just really wanted to change and we made a plan, found support and stuck to it.
11-12 years ago I was stuck as securely as anyone in a cycle of drinking, but I got out. You can too
The fear of being sober is nearly overwhelming I know but that fear is faceable - and you're not alone in facing it.
There no reason at all that you can't do that too.
Your 2019 can be very different to 2018. Start a new Chapter - its never too late
D
Look around - there many many of us who are securely sober and happy about it
None of us is particularly special. We just really wanted to change and we made a plan, found support and stuck to it.
11-12 years ago I was stuck as securely as anyone in a cycle of drinking, but I got out. You can too
The fear of being sober is nearly overwhelming I know but that fear is faceable - and you're not alone in facing it.
There no reason at all that you can't do that too.
Your 2019 can be very different to 2018. Start a new Chapter - its never too late
D
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Join Date: Apr 2010
Location: New York
Posts: 35,731
Thank you for clarifying, UhOh.
There is no shame in reaching out for help. In fact, just the opposite is true. You have a whole community of people here that understand your struggle.
Do you have a course of action in mind?
There is no shame in reaching out for help. In fact, just the opposite is true. You have a whole community of people here that understand your struggle.
Do you have a course of action in mind?
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