Alcohol has made me...
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Alcohol has made me...
Broke
Fat
Pre-diabetic
Hate myself
Almost dead
Dangerous
Obnoxious
Scared
Confused
Obsessed
Sad
A broken record
Out of control
Less spiritual
Physically sick
A slave
Fat
Pre-diabetic
Hate myself
Almost dead
Dangerous
Obnoxious
Scared
Confused
Obsessed
Sad
A broken record
Out of control
Less spiritual
Physically sick
A slave
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Originally Posted by SnazzyDresser 
Alcohol sure isn't any friend of mine, but to be fair, I was the one choosing to pour it down my throat. Framed another way: "I have used alcohol to make myself..."
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Originally Posted by secretchord
Exactly I have no one to blame but myself.
Why not make today the day you start writing a different story?
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Originally Posted by secretchord
Today is day one for the 5,245th time. I’d like to say I’m more hopeful this time. It’s so hard. I’ll never give up trying.
Don't just hope though - make a plan and do the work, Write it down and carry it around with you if you need to. It can be as simple as saying "I will not drink alcohol today no matter what". Take a look at your avatar - it pretty much sums up the situation perfectly. Follow that premise and you will go far.
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secret,
I just went downstairs to get a cup of coffee. On the table were some cookies. Delicious sugar and chocolate chip cookies. The crave for them ramped up and I didn't deny it. I had 1.5 small cookies. They were amazing.
The booze is the same thing. It calls to us. We don't want to drink it, but we can't help it.
The only way I as able to get this far was because I had hellish long term mental and physical issues. I was your list in the flesh as well.
Prayers you find the self discipline to power through. The best advice I ever got at the AA meetings I attended was to eat sweets when I craved.
Eat sweets. Now is not the time to go on a diet. My cholesterol went up when I quit drinking because I substituded everything for booze.
I stayed full. I had snacks everywhere.
That is the best advice I ever got.
The next best was just to remember that it gets easier and easier each time I deny myself the booze.
Thanks.
I just went downstairs to get a cup of coffee. On the table were some cookies. Delicious sugar and chocolate chip cookies. The crave for them ramped up and I didn't deny it. I had 1.5 small cookies. They were amazing.
The booze is the same thing. It calls to us. We don't want to drink it, but we can't help it.
The only way I as able to get this far was because I had hellish long term mental and physical issues. I was your list in the flesh as well.
Prayers you find the self discipline to power through. The best advice I ever got at the AA meetings I attended was to eat sweets when I craved.
Eat sweets. Now is not the time to go on a diet. My cholesterol went up when I quit drinking because I substituded everything for booze.
I stayed full. I had snacks everywhere.
That is the best advice I ever got.
The next best was just to remember that it gets easier and easier each time I deny myself the booze.
Thanks.
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Perfect list, secretchord - can't add a thing. Keep referring to it - we can never forget what it does to us. No more sabotaging our lives. Congrats on your Day 1 - this can be the very last time.
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Originally Posted by secretchord
Today is day one for the 5,245th time. I’d like to say I’m more hopeful this time. It’s so hard. I’ll never give up trying.
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Originally Posted by DontRemember
Hope has never worked for me in anything I wanted. Money=work. Physical/mental fitness=work. Sobriety=work. Relationships=work. I had to stop 'hoping' and start doing.
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why not join the December support thread secretchord?
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...rt-1-a-10.html
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...rt-1-a-10.html
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Originally Posted by secretchord
Today is day one for the 5,245th time. I’d like to say I’m more hopeful this time. It’s so hard. I’ll never give up trying.
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Ditto Dee's suggestion to join the December class thread. It will help you to band together with other people who are in the same stage of recovery as you are, and to be accountable for not drinking each day. 
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Originally Posted by MantaLady
Congrats Secretchord!! 
Thanks. I'm quite honestly shocked. I barely made it through Friday night. My next trigger is New Year's Eve.
My AV is weirdly obsessed with dates/numbers. It says to me constantly all week that there is nothing special about December 16 and (now) January 1 would be more memorable. Ugh. Been playing this game for two years.
But I'm still standing.
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