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Luckily for me, rehab is available in Poland with no insurance... I contacted my addiction counsellor, she put me on the waiting list. Not sure how long it's gonna take, but it's ok...
I'm doing a little better today. Not in so much pain. I slept a little... it kinda feels like my body sighs with relief.
I'm doing a little better today. Not in so much pain. I slept a little... it kinda feels like my body sighs with relief.
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Glad you're doing a little better today, Snuf.
Dee has some great ideas for you, free rehab is wonderful. I hope you can get in soon.
All my love to our girl. Prayers and hugs to you. Love you, Aly ♥♥♥
Dee has some great ideas for you, free rehab is wonderful. I hope you can get in soon.
All my love to our girl. Prayers and hugs to you. Love you, Aly ♥♥♥
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Well you have one good friend who didn't know about your thread....sorry. xx
Need to read....but you already know how I feel love....just with you all the way.
If you can do rehab there, gosh, you said it is free....go for it honey. We will be with you all the way.
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And thank you darling Aly for telling me about the thread. xx
Need to read....but you already know how I feel love....just with you all the way.
If you can do rehab there, gosh, you said it is free....go for it honey. We will be with you all the way.
♥♥And thank you darling Aly for telling me about the thread. xx
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Originally Posted by Snufkin 
Luckily for me, rehab is available in Poland with no insurance... I contacted my addiction counsellor, she put me on the waiting list. Not sure how long it's gonna take, but it's ok...
I'm doing a little better today. Not in so much pain. I slept a little... it kinda feels like my body sighs with relief.
I'm doing a little better today. Not in so much pain. I slept a little... it kinda feels like my body sighs with relief.
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Hi, Snufkin.
Sorry to hear you've been through so much pain.
I wonder, if you don't mind me asking, if there is some deep and disturbing trauma which stems from earlier stages of your life which keeps pushing you to self-destructive behaviour?
It's really important to deal with underlying reasons and finally set yourself free.
Sorry to bring it up - just talking from my experience.
Hugs to you.
Sorry to hear you've been through so much pain.
I wonder, if you don't mind me asking, if there is some deep and disturbing trauma which stems from earlier stages of your life which keeps pushing you to self-destructive behaviour?
It's really important to deal with underlying reasons and finally set yourself free.
Sorry to bring it up - just talking from my experience.
Hugs to you.
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sorry you're having a tough time ((Snufs)). hang in there, you've proved you can live sober & you can do it again.
PM me if you want any help with SMART - literature, meetings, etc.
PM me if you want any help with SMART - literature, meetings, etc.
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well I guess the silver lining to all this is that most of us have to learn the hard way with a few catastrophes.
If you've really had enough now then take action again.
Every now and then some people quit at the first sign of trouble and stay quit, but most of us have to get a bit mangled first.
welcome to the club
If you've really had enough now then take action again.
Every now and then some people quit at the first sign of trouble and stay quit, but most of us have to get a bit mangled first.
welcome to the club
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Thanks guys for all your kind words and constant support I don’t deserve.
Past two days were horrible, awful. I drank, and filled my time with random hookups. One of them had some drugs with him, and I don’t even know what I took yesterday. As you can imagine I stayed in bed all day today, I’m bruised and sore and feeling GROSS. I have a lot of self-harm urges to punish myself for all this, but I asked a friend to come over, so hopefully nothing happens when I’m not alone.
I’m going to visit my family tomorrow and gonna stay with them for a week. They know that I don’t drink and they support me... hopefully I can rest and stay sober. I’m having problems making it through first few days now...
Past two days were horrible, awful. I drank, and filled my time with random hookups. One of them had some drugs with him, and I don’t even know what I took yesterday. As you can imagine I stayed in bed all day today, I’m bruised and sore and feeling GROSS. I have a lot of self-harm urges to punish myself for all this, but I asked a friend to come over, so hopefully nothing happens when I’m not alone.
I’m going to visit my family tomorrow and gonna stay with them for a week. They know that I don’t drink and they support me... hopefully I can rest and stay sober. I’m having problems making it through first few days now...
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Hello, Snuf, I'm checking in for the first time in a long while because I saw your post. I've been a miserable failure ever since leaving SR - binge drinking every day, but I wanted to check in and offer my support. You're a wonderfully creative person and you deserve to walk a better path. Best wishes and hopes that you find whatever tools you need to stay on it!
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