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Keep on pushing snuff. We always seem to remember luge when it was going great and think we are on the wrong track, but life surprises us when we get these moments like you with the cat .
Maybe you are meant to be where you are, try and find gratitude.
Maybe you are meant to be where you are, try and find gratitude.
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Join Date: Aug 2017
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Hey guys,
I'm sorry I haven't been active much on here. There's so much going on, but I'm doing well - sober and getting stronger each day.
Still struggling to get a job, but I don't give up, I'm gonna find something eventually...
I will try to write a bit more soon!
Love to All
I'm sorry I haven't been active much on here. There's so much going on, but I'm doing well - sober and getting stronger each day.
Still struggling to get a job, but I don't give up, I'm gonna find something eventually... I will try to write a bit more soon!
Love to All
, Snuf! Sounds great! Glad you posted!
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I'm still here, still sober and self-harm (of any kind) free. I know it's only been like a month or two since my last relapse, but I'm feeling so... stable. I still have bad days filled with anxiety, when I cry a lot wanting to escape, but I don't follow the impulse.
Things are good. I just... STILL struggle to get a job and it's my biggest worry now. Ugh ugh ugh. I live rent-free at my bf's place and it feels awful. Yeah, I know I play a good wifey and he genuinely likes to have me around, but I wish I could, you know... contribute financially... at least a little. I don't even go anywhere coz I'm too embarassed to ask for bus ticket money and whatever. I can't live like thiiiis... Sigh.
I miss Scotland... I know it's gonna take some time, but it's hard to adjust. I start to hate Poland
, but then again it took me like 3-4 years to settle in the UK, so we'll see... I can't run away and waste time 'starting over' forever...
Thanks for letting me moan.
Despite this unfortunate financial situation, I'm actually feeling positive and peaceful, and grateful for my sobriety. I can't imagine what state I'd be in if I was still drinking...
Here's a pic of my bf's cat Simeon. He finally started to tolerate me. It required a lot of chicken... but we made it.
I know it's only been like a month or two since my last relapse, but I'm feeling so... stable. I still have bad days filled with anxiety, when I cry a lot wanting to escape, but I don't follow the impulse. Things are good. I just... STILL struggle to get a job and it's my biggest worry now. Ugh ugh ugh. I live rent-free at my bf's place and it feels awful. Yeah, I know I play a good wifey and he genuinely likes to have me around, but I wish I could, you know... contribute financially... at least a little. I don't even go anywhere coz I'm too embarassed to ask for bus ticket money and whatever. I can't live like thiiiis... Sigh.
I miss Scotland... I know it's gonna take some time, but it's hard to adjust. I start to hate Poland
, but then again it took me like 3-4 years to settle in the UK, so we'll see... I can't run away and waste time 'starting over' forever...Thanks for letting me moan.
Despite this unfortunate financial situation, I'm actually feeling positive and peaceful, and grateful for my sobriety. I can't imagine what state I'd be in if I was still drinking... Here's a pic of my bf's cat Simeon. He finally started to tolerate me. It required a lot of chicken... but we made it.
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Snuf honey, I was thinking a lot about you last night....sometimes I need to let things sit for a bit before I can offer any useful insight.....I am thinking this:
You are sober, you are getting better after being really unwell for ages, you have a very nice boyfriend and cat....and a place to call home right now that isn't stressful. Yes, I know you need and want a job, but you kind of need bus money to go on interviews...I really believe that it is one hundred per cent fine to talk to your guy about this. I bet he will be horrified when he realises you were afraid to ask for any more help....it's just bus money love. You need to be able to get out....how can you even do the grocery shopping for the house...I know.....he does it or you do it together.....well Nick does way too much for me (funnily he thinks it is the other way around).....and I need to be more independent as well. It is good for us.
You got this girl.....new life, one step at a time.
You are sober, you are getting better after being really unwell for ages, you have a very nice boyfriend and cat....and a place to call home right now that isn't stressful. Yes, I know you need and want a job, but you kind of need bus money to go on interviews...I really believe that it is one hundred per cent fine to talk to your guy about this. I bet he will be horrified when he realises you were afraid to ask for any more help....it's just bus money love. You need to be able to get out....how can you even do the grocery shopping for the house...I know.....he does it or you do it together.....well Nick does way too much for me (funnily he thinks it is the other way around).....and I need to be more independent as well. It is good for us.
You got this girl.....new life, one step at a time.
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