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Thank you
I quit drinking on October 1st, 2015.
It has not been an easy three years in many ways. I attempted to go off antidepressants (under a doctor's care, did everything right) and spiraled into a six month hell of severe anxiety and crippling depression and a couple of months where I barely slept. I am lucky I made it out alive. It took a while for new meds to start working again. Thank God they did and I am alive and well and free of depression. I just read a post I wrote back then before the real hell started and it chilled me to the bone. Some of us have brains that need forever support, and I am one of them.
As a consequence, and for other reasons, my longterm relationship ended.
My mother was diagnosed with Alzheimer's.
I moved across the country.
Lots of stress. Lots of wonderful things, too--more than I can count. I live a blessed life with work I love, my needs met, a rich spiritual life, good friends, and a healthy body.
Throughout it all, my sobriety has been a gift. At least I didn't have to think about whether i should drink or not. At least I didn't make things worse in terms of how I felt. At least I didn't have to wake up and think, "uh oh, what did I say?" At least I didn't have to deal with the anxiety that drinking evoked, and the aftereffects of one or four or 8 too many.
Thank you to Dee and everyone here--this place really set me on the path. I am so glad I decided to try 90 days and now I know I can go through hell and survive without alcohol. Sweet freedom.
May we all be well, one day at a time
It has not been an easy three years in many ways. I attempted to go off antidepressants (under a doctor's care, did everything right) and spiraled into a six month hell of severe anxiety and crippling depression and a couple of months where I barely slept. I am lucky I made it out alive. It took a while for new meds to start working again. Thank God they did and I am alive and well and free of depression. I just read a post I wrote back then before the real hell started and it chilled me to the bone. Some of us have brains that need forever support, and I am one of them.
As a consequence, and for other reasons, my longterm relationship ended.
My mother was diagnosed with Alzheimer's.
I moved across the country.
Lots of stress. Lots of wonderful things, too--more than I can count. I live a blessed life with work I love, my needs met, a rich spiritual life, good friends, and a healthy body.
Throughout it all, my sobriety has been a gift. At least I didn't have to think about whether i should drink or not. At least I didn't make things worse in terms of how I felt. At least I didn't have to wake up and think, "uh oh, what did I say?" At least I didn't have to deal with the anxiety that drinking evoked, and the aftereffects of one or four or 8 too many.
Thank you to Dee and everyone here--this place really set me on the path. I am so glad I decided to try 90 days and now I know I can go through hell and survive without alcohol. Sweet freedom.
May we all be well, one day at a time
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Join Date: Apr 2018
Location: You know nothing Jon Snow - UK
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Thanks for your inspiring message and congratulations on your 3+ years of sobriety. Have a most wonderful sober festive season and wishing you a happy and healthy 2020!! xx
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