26 Days and Feeling Down
I am very glad to hear from you, GhostFace! Thanks so much for,
posting; I have been thinking about you.
What do you think that you could add to your plan. Have you identified any new triggers?
posting; I have been thinking about you.
What do you think that you could add to your plan. Have you identified any new triggers?
Hey guys,
I had to go through this entire thread, and I almost shed a tear at the level of support. I'm doing much better, minus the drinking, but I took a vow not to drink again. I'm close to two days, and usually, my cravings are on the weekend, but tonight I don't crave alcohol. Last weekend I humiliated myself, with no remembrance of what occurred, just word of mouth from friends and family. I'm ashamed, disgusted, fearful, and embarrassed by my actions. The solution for this not to happen again is to quit drinking. Friends and family keep telling me that I can control it, but I'm convinced I can not. I fit all the signs of a functional alcoholic, which scares me. I keep imagining how life without alcohol would be, but it has to be better than what I go through when I'm drunk and I blackout. I also came to a realization that everything bad that happens to me, I'm under the influence. I need to change, I'm 36 years old, and I'm moving like I'm 16.
Sorry for venting, and thank you for listening.
I had to go through this entire thread, and I almost shed a tear at the level of support. I'm doing much better, minus the drinking, but I took a vow not to drink again. I'm close to two days, and usually, my cravings are on the weekend, but tonight I don't crave alcohol. Last weekend I humiliated myself, with no remembrance of what occurred, just word of mouth from friends and family. I'm ashamed, disgusted, fearful, and embarrassed by my actions. The solution for this not to happen again is to quit drinking. Friends and family keep telling me that I can control it, but I'm convinced I can not. I fit all the signs of a functional alcoholic, which scares me. I keep imagining how life without alcohol would be, but it has to be better than what I go through when I'm drunk and I blackout. I also came to a realization that everything bad that happens to me, I'm under the influence. I need to change, I'm 36 years old, and I'm moving like I'm 16.
Sorry for venting, and thank you for listening.
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Ghost, I just read this thread and you articulated exactly where I am at. I was struck though by your self awareness, honesty and humility.
I'm sorry you had to have another crappy experience with the booze. It happens though so try not to beat yourself up.
I've so related to your struggle and posts that I truly hope you can get back to that place of progress, find some of the good that's out there waiting for you.
Good luck, and mate, you can do this 👍🏻
I'm sorry you had to have another crappy experience with the booze. It happens though so try not to beat yourself up.
I've so related to your struggle and posts that I truly hope you can get back to that place of progress, find some of the good that's out there waiting for you.
Good luck, and mate, you can do this 👍🏻
I'm doubtful that "functional" includes having blackouts. Unfortunately, we tend to resist the solution to our problem, because we want it some other way than what it has to be. When you finally do find your way to permanent sobriety, this reverses, and you will be happy you finally quit. You will look back at yourself and ask, "What was I thinking?"
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