Day 2 and struggling
 

Hi everyone,

So it's actually been a pretty good year, which makes what happened so much worse. I've had 2 lapses in 2018 which lasted 2 days each.
I've been getting frequent cravings the last few weeks, but it all came to a head a few days ago.

I just snapped.

Now I'm sitting here by myself wondering how long this terrible anxiety and depression will last, and how long it will be before I can get back to my life.

I've never reached out for support in the 3 years I've been trying to stay clean. I was too proud and now I have to admit that I need help.

If you have any advice I'd love to hear it

Thank you for reading

This is a great and supportive place, Shareef. Most of us have been exactly in your shoes--and if we can quit, you can quit.

Life really is so much better sober--especially with a good support group encouraging you.

Exercise is a great stress reliever - Welcome to posting :)

Thank you
 

Thanks guys,

I'm pretty isolated so it's nice to know people out there are listening :)

Where do you think the best place I should post is? I'm a bit lost to be honest...

Welcome to the family! :) You can post anywhere you like. The only exception is the women's forum for women, the men's forum for men. Other than that, you can post anywhere. :)

I hope our support can help you achieve lasting sobriety. :grouphug:

Hello and welcome.
I've been in your shoes a hundred times, so you're not alone.
Holding my head in my hands after a relapse and wondering, how could this have happened again?

Stick around here, you'll find a lot of support from people who understand.
And remember, you never have to drink/use again.

reaching out to others and getting honest was a huge component of my beginning sobriety.
I was always convinced I could do this by myself, and it took me many many years and downfalls to finally accept that I could not.
welcome, Shareef.

Keep up the great work!! Wishing you the best!

Glad you are here.

A lot of us isolated so coming here to find a lot of people who know what you are going through is a great first step. The most important thing is NO drinking.

IRL support is really critical for me now, and certainly at the beginning. What about going to an AA meeting?

Hows it going today Shareef?

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