Hawkeye13

Wishing you a great Day 1 sweeti--please update and let us know how you are.

How about a little food and a nice long shower or bath with epsom salts to recharge?

sweetichick

Hi Halkeye. Thanks for asking. Day 1 is finally over and I somehow made it.. probably from the support here. It's nearly midnight and in bed. Deciding what to do with the money I will save.

bexxed

That’s awesome sweeti!

sweetichick

Thanks Bexxed. I am happy with my progress.

Zanna

How's it going Sweetichick ? Was thinking about you, so signed in to ask.
Hope this finds you well and smiling
Stay strong Xx

Delilah1

Hi Sweeti,

Just got caught up on your thread. I'm glad you have day one in the books, and also that you are looking into rehab. I think that would be a great way for you to get a base of sobriety under you, and they can help you co e up with a recovery plan that will work for you.

What are your plans for today?

Fearlessat50

How’s it going today, Sweeti?

Hevyn

I'm thinking of you too, Sweeti.

Hawkeye13

What's up sweeti?

Miss your posts--how about a check in

sweetichick

Thanks for all the kind replies. I wrote on another thread how I fell off again. Not what you want to hear I know. I missed these messages. Today is another day one. It's super tough already.

Zanna

Keep trying and keep coming back - we miss your posts.
God knows it took me long enough for it to finally 'click' but if I can do it, believe me you can
It's honestly and truly worth it.
hugs Xx

sweetichick

Thanks Zanna. You are always very encouraging.

bexxed

Sorry I missed the other one. Been thinking about you. You did it the other day, you can do it today! Glad you made it back.

sweetichick

Thanks Bexxed. Just took some withdrawal medication and trying to chill out. It's nice to know people care.

Zanna

We have more in common that you realise Sweeti - I totally understand about not having seen your kids for a while. Thanks to my abusive ex, I haven't seen mine either. Mine are now early 20's so I'm hoping they'll see him for what he is soon - I never drank at all until this happened and realised back in early 2016, that if I continued to drink, HE was still affecting me - winning, if you like.
Now alcohol doesn't enter my thoughts, but in the early days I would imagine his face sneering and laughing on each bottle or can and it sure went a long way to helping me quit back then.
Here for you love.
Xx

sweetichick

That's a good way of looking at it Zanna. Sorry to hear about your abuse. I know exactly how you feel. If I drink myself to death he wins and the kids end up $300000 richer. HesH got a lot of motivation. Sorry to hear your kids are in their early twenties and haven't started thinking for themselves. I have to face the fact that I may never see mine again. It's called parental alienation. I only started drinking when we split and then had to do twice weekly urine testing to prove I was off it. I am sure you have your own story of trying to fight back. Hope I haven't depressed you. Love and hugs.

ReadyAtLast

Have you looked into rehab sweeti ? this constant cycle of day 1s then picking up again can't be doing any good. As they say nothing changes if nothing changes. I hope you can look at doing something else and getting additional help to get out of the cycle. Your doctor has told you if you keep drinking you will die yet you keep drinking. Maybe it's now time for rehab.

Hawkeye13

I went through a series of relapses this past year sweeti--it was hard to break the cycle--I really understand.

You can do it, and getting extra help to get started is a good option if other things aren't working.

I know you can do this. Take heart and don't ever give up

sweetichick

Just an update. Made it through day 1. Day 2 struggling with anxiety. Finding it hard to get motivated as I still feel pretty sick. Thanks Hawk for your support. It's nearly 3pm. So I am right when I normally start. Will try cooking instead.

bexxed

Hey Sweetichick! It’s late here in the US, I guess I’m in your yesterday. I think cooking sounds like a good plan. Drink water, also. We’re all cooking up a storm over here for our holiday tomorrow. I spent the evening preparing pies. Day two - way to go! You only have a few hours left of it, if you think about it. I sometimes had to count those hours in the first few days, to stay present. Stick with it, you’re on a roll.

-bexxed