I'm ashamed to come back here
 

I've gotten so much love here that I haven't wanted to come here and admit Im drinking again .I want to stop but I can't seem to muster the motivation. Maybe tomorrow? Please God or whoever, help me.

I felt that way, too. No one here judges, though. We all understand. Welcome back.

You can do this Press, what helped you in the past?

you can do this. no judgement from me:grouphug:

I know the feeling , sometimes the switch off button no drink is strong ... another day it vanishes ..

A pal of mine just stopped 3 weeks in , he said he realised it was poison that made it easy he said , only 3 weeks in but it’s like the individual has to really believe it ... he had been told many times by family and he could not go a day without a beer.

I guess it’s different for us all , but it’s a beast that’s a fact .

No one will judge you , we have all been there.

Good luck

Hmmm..
Checking in with a spindsp daily
rehab
Daily meetings
Remorse
Sober softball
Willingness to set aside my ego
Not thinking. Just doing.
Making an agreement to stop
Naltrexone
Praying (to whatever)
Gratitude lists
Reading from one day at a time
Journaling daily
Exercise
Not reading the news
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Welcome back, Pressme

PMTIH- NEVER be ashamed to post, wanting support and help. It is why this place exists. You have done nothing wrong- but are beating yourself up. BUT YOU POSTED! Well done.
Keep posting
My prayers and support to you

Hi pressme. Sorry your back drinking. It is so hard to give up for me. But we can both make it if we don't give up. Wake up tomorrow and make it a sober day. Then one day at a time.

Glad you came back here for love and support!
We are all here for you! You can do this!

Hey Press- glad to hear from you! And that's a pretty good list- starting with not drinking today. Stay with us.

Welcome back Press :)

I am confident you can stop again. It all starts with a day one :)

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No shame allowed! We're glad to see you & want to help you get free again. This time for good.

I was still drinking when I came here, but I knew I was ready for my new life to begin. You can do it, Press.

There is nothing to be ashamed of. We do understand. :)

Glad you're back press--

What's the revised plan?
Looks like you've got a good start from your list above.

You should feel proud of yourself for coming back.

If it was so easy that you got sober the first time without any effort or challenges, you probably weren't an alcoholic in the first place.

I've been reading The Book of Joy by the Dalai Lama and Archbishop Desmund Tutu. Last night I came across this: "The acceptance of reality is the only place from which change can begin." Those fortunate enough to have no clue what it's like to live in active addiction sometimes refer to our bottoms as a "moment of clarity." Personally, it was anything but clear... it was an overwhelming sense of despair. In retrospect, that is what it took for me to truly commit to getting sober. My first sponsor told me never to forget my last drink... or chances were I hadn't had it yet. This is the nature of our disease: it never goes away.

Pressme, the only thing special about the folks that "make it" is that they do what they have to stay sober... every. single. day. If you always remember today, you have a pretty good shot of never having to repeat it.

Good luck - keep posting!

Eddie, I love that book!

Press, welcome back. No need to ever feel shame or fear of judgment here! I hope you will keep posting and reading here. We are here to support you. From your list, troubled times indeed. Let’s steer clear of the news together!

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Don't be ashamed darling, that is your alcoholism trying to stop you from posting and reaching out for help so you can continue drinking, it is cunning, powerful and baffling. One day I feel literally repulsed at the thought of a drink the next day it seems like the obvious solution to my problems!! We have to remain ever vigilant and it can be exhausting but the good news is you have done it before and you can do it again. You have reached out and that is amazing you have proved you want to stop imbibing the poison. Just do whatever it takes to get through this day only without drinking and get your head on your pillow sober tonight.