10 weeks sober!! Wonderful!
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10 weeks sober!! Wonderful!
I can't believe how different I feel.
Even 5 weeks ago I couldn't imagine I feel so good.
I was drinking upto and sometimes more than ten bottles of wine a week and smoking cigarettes sometimes too. I drank heavily like that for four years, and before that a party weekend drinker.
The first two weeks of stopping I was at a&e convinced I was dying of heart attacks, anxiety was horrendous I imagined how I could go in living with this doom feeling.
Got given Prozac but that made me feel worse so in the bin it went. Diazepam but to take in an emergency, and I can see how they become addictive because they knock you out. So tried not to rely on them. And ended up on 80mg of propranolol which seems to work.
I still have jitters where I'll suddenly feel ill, sweating and anxious but it lasts minute's not days. And happens two or three times a week. And I know it'll get easier.
So hopefully someone reading this, it DOES get better. The first 30 days are HARD. But believe me stay clean and sober and life really gets better.
I was teary and crying for weeks but now my emotions have settled I feel more 'normal' keeping myself in check. I thought I would lose weight but I have a craving for cakes and biscuits, but I'll not worry right now about that until my head's 100% ready.
I went for a meal with my husband and drank water but even being in a busy bar set off my anxiety with alcohol around. Just bringing back feelings of it. But it'll get easier. I used to think I wasn't able to have a social occasion without a drink or it was boring.
Or I wouldn't be funny or social but I'm just the same as I am with people. I just don't go on nights out anymore.
But that is fine, I've found knitting to be really helpful in moments of anxiety, it looks hard but watch some videos on YouTube and it's easy once you get started. And jigsaws, really force you to use different parts of your brain and not the anxiety part.
Nobody knew my drink problem was so bad, I'm in my 30s, with kids and a husband. On the outside you'd never have guessed I was falling apart. Even hid it from my husband well.
So there is hope if you're reading this, it's never too late and the dreadful feeling does go, it's just really really hard at first. And I know in ten weeks it can only get better.
I didn't have an easy life, drink was good to block things out. Most people have not have decent lives, but I won't let yesterday spoil tomorrow anymore.
Love to all on the journey.
Even 5 weeks ago I couldn't imagine I feel so good.
I was drinking upto and sometimes more than ten bottles of wine a week and smoking cigarettes sometimes too. I drank heavily like that for four years, and before that a party weekend drinker.
The first two weeks of stopping I was at a&e convinced I was dying of heart attacks, anxiety was horrendous I imagined how I could go in living with this doom feeling.
Got given Prozac but that made me feel worse so in the bin it went. Diazepam but to take in an emergency, and I can see how they become addictive because they knock you out. So tried not to rely on them. And ended up on 80mg of propranolol which seems to work.
I still have jitters where I'll suddenly feel ill, sweating and anxious but it lasts minute's not days. And happens two or three times a week. And I know it'll get easier.
So hopefully someone reading this, it DOES get better. The first 30 days are HARD. But believe me stay clean and sober and life really gets better.
I was teary and crying for weeks but now my emotions have settled I feel more 'normal' keeping myself in check. I thought I would lose weight but I have a craving for cakes and biscuits, but I'll not worry right now about that until my head's 100% ready.
I went for a meal with my husband and drank water but even being in a busy bar set off my anxiety with alcohol around. Just bringing back feelings of it. But it'll get easier. I used to think I wasn't able to have a social occasion without a drink or it was boring.
Or I wouldn't be funny or social but I'm just the same as I am with people. I just don't go on nights out anymore.
But that is fine, I've found knitting to be really helpful in moments of anxiety, it looks hard but watch some videos on YouTube and it's easy once you get started. And jigsaws, really force you to use different parts of your brain and not the anxiety part.
Nobody knew my drink problem was so bad, I'm in my 30s, with kids and a husband. On the outside you'd never have guessed I was falling apart. Even hid it from my husband well.
So there is hope if you're reading this, it's never too late and the dreadful feeling does go, it's just really really hard at first. And I know in ten weeks it can only get better.
I didn't have an easy life, drink was good to block things out. Most people have not have decent lives, but I won't let yesterday spoil tomorrow anymore.
Love to all on the journey.
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Congratulations on 70 days purple petals!
Very nice of you to share the ups and downs that you have had. I think my life is better as well, although not perfect either. I agree that having something to do with your hands keep them busy and your mind busy to get more sober muscle time under your belt. Realizing you can go to dinner with your husband and let those feelings come in and out about memories of alcohol and all of those people around you drinking is wonderful.
It’s weird but true. We can have fun and enjoy life and do the things that we used to do without alcohol.
Very nice of you to share the ups and downs that you have had. I think my life is better as well, although not perfect either. I agree that having something to do with your hands keep them busy and your mind busy to get more sober muscle time under your belt. Realizing you can go to dinner with your husband and let those feelings come in and out about memories of alcohol and all of those people around you drinking is wonderful.
It’s weird but true. We can have fun and enjoy life and do the things that we used to do without alcohol.
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Originally Posted by Horn95 
Thanks purple tail. Very inspiring post. I am DAY 10. I look forward to WEEK 10!!
YOU GOT THIS!!
And thanks for the messages everyone else 😊
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You are amazing purple petals! Thank you for your inspiring post.
By the way, I relate to you in the sense no one knew my drinking was that bad. I also am married with a child and hid the amount I was drinking even from my husband.
Keep going strong. You are right. It will just keep getting better!
By the way, I relate to you in the sense no one knew my drinking was that bad. I also am married with a child and hid the amount I was drinking even from my husband.
Keep going strong. You are right. It will just keep getting better!
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Congratulations so proud of you
That was my story also ...don't worry about the cakes and buns I'm almost 11 months and I've NEVER had a sweet tooth until I quit drinking
I can tell you it gets even BETTER ...
so keep going
your doing FANTASTIC
Cara❤
That was my story also ...don't worry about the cakes and buns I'm almost 11 months and I've NEVER had a sweet tooth until I quit drinking
I can tell you it gets even BETTER ...
so keep going
your doing FANTASTIC
Cara❤
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