Failed again I’m pathetic
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Join Date: Jul 2014
Location: North East Scotland
Posts: 487
Hey Eve
You're where I was a couple of days ago.
You're not pathetic or stupid. I find it very hard aswell, I'm only on day 2 and terrified that I'll relapse again.
What makes you drink ? I'm looking hard at why I drink and tackling it from that angle. Just trying to stop isn't enough for me cause I'll fail.
Can you change your routine ?
Would you go to a meeting ?
You can do this, you just need to find your way.
xxx
You're where I was a couple of days ago.
You're not pathetic or stupid. I find it very hard aswell, I'm only on day 2 and terrified that I'll relapse again.
What makes you drink ? I'm looking hard at why I drink and tackling it from that angle. Just trying to stop isn't enough for me cause I'll fail.
Can you change your routine ?
Would you go to a meeting ?
You can do this, you just need to find your way.
xxx
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Join Date: Mar 2015
Location: Georgia
Posts: 240
Originally Posted by eve123 
no words just can’t atop relapsing. So scared now it’s just like I’m so stupid I never learn or change devestated why can’t I just stay sober for good
Originally Posted by ShenzyT
Hey Eve
You're where I was a couple of days ago.
You're not pathetic or stupid. I find it very hard aswell, I'm only on day 2 and terrified that I'll relapse again.
What makes you drink ? I'm looking hard at why I drink and tackling it from that angle. Just trying to stop isn't enough for me cause I'll fail.
Can you change your routine ?
Would you go to a meeting ?
You can do this, you just need to find your way.
xxx
You're where I was a couple of days ago.
You're not pathetic or stupid. I find it very hard aswell, I'm only on day 2 and terrified that I'll relapse again.
What makes you drink ? I'm looking hard at why I drink and tackling it from that angle. Just trying to stop isn't enough for me cause I'll fail.
Can you change your routine ?
Would you go to a meeting ?
You can do this, you just need to find your way.
xxx
Originally Posted by eve123
Been trying for over 6 years tried Aa for years done rehab. Just feel like the worse person and a total failure tha is for replying it’s heartbreaking isn’t it
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Join Date: Nov 2018
Posts: 252
I tried with varying efforts to quit drinking for over 10 years. I'm on day 7 this time and I can't quite explain why I think (know?) it's different this time, but I do very much have that feeling. Keep doing the next right thing and you can do this. Alcohol was my crutch and my cure, until it wasn't. It had become the problem. It took a lot of looking in and soul searching but I finally had to accept that, really accept that. Today I'm calm and I know I will return home tonight the same and that I can do this. I desperately want this to be my last day 7 ever. Keep working, praying, asking for help, and accepting that help, and you can do this!
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Join Date: Nov 2018
Posts: 108
Eve, hang in there. Keep your eyes on being sober and try not to let anything get in your way. You are by all means NOT pathetic. Give yourself a break. You are aware of your issue with drinking and that awareness will take you far. Keep fighting for yourself take it a day at a time. We are rooting for you.
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Join Date: May 2018
Posts: 271
Hi
you are not pathetic. I have a real problems with relapsing. I struggle badly after 3 days sober.
Alcohol is everywhere, also people talk about it all the time in the workplace. When they talk about it it leads
me to buy alcohol with the intention of having one or two drinks. What happens then is I get totally drunk end up doing something stupid. I then wake up unable to go to work going through horrible anxiety and wishing I was dead. I just keep going around in circles it very unhappy existence.
its important to learn something new from each relapse. Someone who keeps on trying is not pathetic. Giving up alcohol peemantly is incredibly difficult.
take care x
you are not pathetic. I have a real problems with relapsing. I struggle badly after 3 days sober.
Alcohol is everywhere, also people talk about it all the time in the workplace. When they talk about it it leads
me to buy alcohol with the intention of having one or two drinks. What happens then is I get totally drunk end up doing something stupid. I then wake up unable to go to work going through horrible anxiety and wishing I was dead. I just keep going around in circles it very unhappy existence.
its important to learn something new from each relapse. Someone who keeps on trying is not pathetic. Giving up alcohol peemantly is incredibly difficult.
take care x
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Join Date: Jun 2016
Location: Adelaide, Australia
Posts: 28,663
Eve- no you are NOT pathetic
no you are NOT stupid
you are human. We are often our worst critics. You posted here and that takes strength and also shows you have hope. Every experience we have in life is a learning one.
Keep posting. My prayers and support to you.
no you are NOT stupid
you are human. We are often our worst critics. You posted here and that takes strength and also shows you have hope. Every experience we have in life is a learning one.
Keep posting. My prayers and support to you.
Sick n tired
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Join Date: Jan 2017
Posts: 509
Thank you all for replying. Day two AGAIN just so fed up of it and I’m afraid I do see myself as pathetic I mean when something causes you so much pain worry and negativity and you still do it again what else can I say. Disgusted by myself really really sick of it all. Then I feel better I forget this and fail again at end of my wits with it all I have a huge problem that I can’t seem to solve. I do still attend meetings but can no longer be honest just have so much shame and fear
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Join Date: Oct 2018
Location: New Mexico
Posts: 1,339
Eve, your emotions are running understandably high right now. As long as you feel that you are not going to pick up a drink again, but you've taken a little time to get back to a more even state of mind, knowing that you can come here any time to express those thoughts safely. You're already two days sober, and that's a start. What can you do now that will keep you from turning back on those two days?
Sick n tired
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Join Date: Jan 2017
Posts: 509
I’m going to post and post on here I still have extreme anxiety and fear sweating head like a washing machine. Just have tried for so long only to fail again over and over it’s insane it really is thabks all for being here
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Join Date: Feb 2015
Location: MN
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Originally Posted by eve123
Thank you all for replying. Day two AGAIN just so fed up of it and I’m afraid I do see myself as pathetic I mean when something causes you so much pain worry and negativity and you still do it again what else can I say. Disgusted by myself really really sick of it all. Then I feel better I forget this and fail again at end of my wits with it all I have a huge problem that I can’t seem to solve. I do still attend meetings but can no longer be honest just have so much shame and fear
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