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Old 11-01-2018, 05:24 PM   #1 (permalink)
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I drank again today


I知 not giving up. Tomorrow is day 1. I知 so tired of the shame and guilt. I have some things from the past that eat at me. I知 hurting. Reading other people痴 struggles helps. I don稚 feel so alone. Thank you SR for being here.
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Old 11-01-2018, 05:31 PM   #2 (permalink)
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I am glad to hear you are not giving up. I had several day 1's too and I broke through. It took finding other ways to deal with the pain and staying busy.
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Old 11-01-2018, 05:32 PM   #3 (permalink)
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Old 11-01-2018, 06:20 PM   #4 (permalink)
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You can definitely do this!! Get some water and a good night sleep. Looking forward to celebrating your day one tomorrow.
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Old 11-01-2018, 06:29 PM   #5 (permalink)
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Old 11-01-2018, 06:36 PM   #6 (permalink)
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Thank you everyone. The support means so much.
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Old 11-01-2018, 06:46 PM   #7 (permalink)
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I'm sorry you're hurting, bluedog.

I know dealing with the past is very difficult. Maybe try and get some counseling to help you. Drinking never solved any problem I ever had. In fact, alcohol compounded everything tenfold.

I'm glad you're trying again. You can do this!
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Old 11-01-2018, 06:51 PM   #8 (permalink)
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Hey Bluedog
you've been trying to deal with the past by drinking for a long time now - it's not not working man.

There must be other better healthier ways to deal with your past and the things & people in your life that trigger you

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Old 11-01-2018, 07:03 PM   #9 (permalink)
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We'll be here for your Day 1, bluedog. Proud of you for not giving up. Keep talking to us.
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Old 11-01-2018, 07:18 PM   #10 (permalink)
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Don稚 give up Bluedog! You can do it! Can you think about your strategy and what could be different the next time you have an urge to drink? Can you come here instead, go for a walk, run, drive, whatever? And wait for the bad feelings to pass? They always do, and you don稚 have to give in. Therapy really helped me in the beginning because I had to co,e to terms with my past childhood and resentments. In fact, I知 not sure I could have done it without therapy.

Lots of support here for you.
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Old 11-01-2018, 09:32 PM   #11 (permalink)
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I am in pretty early, and man am I am glad that i am finally getting some good nights sleep again.
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Old 11-01-2018, 11:40 PM   #12 (permalink)
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Bluedog.
Remember that this is a journey. It is not a destination.
You will get "there" in time. Just live and learn thru the 'bumps in the road'.
Give yourself a break and begin again.
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Good one BD! Get back up on the horse- keep trying. Every experience is a learning one, which recovery can be built. Keep reading, learning, sharing, posting.
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Old 11-02-2018, 03:42 PM   #14 (permalink)
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Hope it's going ok, Bluedog. Thinking of you.
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Old 11-02-2018, 05:26 PM   #15 (permalink)
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How has the day been Bluedog? Hope you are sober and safe.
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Old 11-02-2018, 05:35 PM   #16 (permalink)
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Yea thanks for checking in. Still sober and I plan to stay that way. Still dealing with a terrible hangover but hopefully tomorrow will get better.

I really think I hit bottom last night. It was awful. I plan to hit a few meetings this weekend.
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