Day One
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Join Date: Oct 2018
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Day One
So, here I am. I've been lurking for some weeks now and finally made the commitment to join after reading several of your stories. I'm like, "that's me".
Been a daily (night time) drinker for many years. Like others, I didn't see my drinking as a "problem" because I'd never been arrested, never been fired from work and even managed to work out almost every day. But, at the end of the day, whether it was 2 drinks or 5, it was a problem. Constantly thinking about it, how much I had left, when I'd be out to get more.
More and more I've been thinking about how I need to quit. But I didn't, I'd just "think" about it. I'd justify it somehow, lie to myself about how I could "moderate". So I'd think about it and then find some excuse to go home and crack a beer. After all, I wasn't a 24-7 drunk.
But I'm sick of living in this prison. so here I am.
Had my last drink yesterday (too much cheap wine). Today, I feel like garbage. I know I'm going to feel like garbage for a bit. I dumped the rest of the poison down the drain for when inevitable urges strike. Trying to drink lots of water with electrolyte tablets and hope the "sick" doesn't last too long. I've told my significant other so I can be held accountable and have support.
Thanks to all of you for sharing your stories. Coming out and admitting you have a problem is hard. I personally feel a lot of shame and embarrassment. I know it's going to be a struggle, but a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. Now, I'm just scared.
Thanks guys. I appreciate you and will need your help.
Been a daily (night time) drinker for many years. Like others, I didn't see my drinking as a "problem" because I'd never been arrested, never been fired from work and even managed to work out almost every day. But, at the end of the day, whether it was 2 drinks or 5, it was a problem. Constantly thinking about it, how much I had left, when I'd be out to get more.
More and more I've been thinking about how I need to quit. But I didn't, I'd just "think" about it. I'd justify it somehow, lie to myself about how I could "moderate". So I'd think about it and then find some excuse to go home and crack a beer. After all, I wasn't a 24-7 drunk.
But I'm sick of living in this prison. so here I am.
Had my last drink yesterday (too much cheap wine). Today, I feel like garbage. I know I'm going to feel like garbage for a bit. I dumped the rest of the poison down the drain for when inevitable urges strike. Trying to drink lots of water with electrolyte tablets and hope the "sick" doesn't last too long. I've told my significant other so I can be held accountable and have support.
Thanks to all of you for sharing your stories. Coming out and admitting you have a problem is hard. I personally feel a lot of shame and embarrassment. I know it's going to be a struggle, but a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. Now, I'm just scared.
Thanks guys. I appreciate you and will need your help.
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Join Date: Jun 2011
Posts: 543
Thanks for joining! Your story sounds a lot like mine and it was always easy for me to downplay my problem. There are stories in this forum that run the spectrum, but there is still a commonality amongst us and we are all in the same boat solving the same issues.
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Join Date: Jun 2013
Location: Atlanta
Posts: 2,872
Hello and welcome. Glad you decided to post.
Sorry you feel bad, but remember, you never have to feel this way again.
I dumped more booze down the drain than a normal drinker would drink in a year.
It didn't help. They kept making more.
It took action and you just took the first step. So congratulations.
Best to you and stick around.
Sorry you feel bad, but remember, you never have to feel this way again.
I dumped more booze down the drain than a normal drinker would drink in a year.
It didn't help. They kept making more.
It took action and you just took the first step. So congratulations.
Best to you and stick around.
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Join Date: Aug 2016
Posts: 71
Yeah... in reference to the alcohol dumping... I totally can relate to that... I would feel guilty for drinking more like a shame at times because I know I was killing myself so I would dump only to go back and rationalize the behavior of my drinking problem.... Through time and persistence you’ll get through this...😊
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