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Thanks, guys. I always appreciate the graciousness here.
It hasn't been a particularly destructive relapse, and I know it just happened because I'm tired and have so little time to relax. But still, I wish it didn't have to be a struggle.
It hasn't been a particularly destructive relapse, and I know it just happened because I'm tired and have so little time to relax. But still, I wish it didn't have to be a struggle.
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Thanks, guys.
Dee, I went on a weekend away with the husband and drank a bit there, not much, and of course jumped to the conclusion that I was now in control of it. Then we got home and back to the chaos of our lives and I realized I wasn't actually in control.
I didn't have problems with withdrawals, I'm not nervous about the act of quitting, I'm just tired of failing and scared to take responsibility for my own actions and choices.
So, although it's back to day one, it's not back to square one. I feel stronger and can go longer each time. I just have to let go for good. Thanks for everyone's encouragement... I know you see a million day one posts (most of us repeat offenders) and you are still so gracious and patient.
Dee, I went on a weekend away with the husband and drank a bit there, not much, and of course jumped to the conclusion that I was now in control of it. Then we got home and back to the chaos of our lives and I realized I wasn't actually in control.
I didn't have problems with withdrawals, I'm not nervous about the act of quitting, I'm just tired of failing and scared to take responsibility for my own actions and choices.
So, although it's back to day one, it's not back to square one. I feel stronger and can go longer each time. I just have to let go for good. Thanks for everyone's encouragement... I know you see a million day one posts (most of us repeat offenders) and you are still so gracious and patient.
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Originally Posted by Dee74 
Welcome back 
any ideas on what you might do differently this time?
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any ideas on what you might do differently this time?
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John Lennon’s birthday today, Dee, I recognize the avatar. I always remember cause it’s mine too
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Well done Lipstick. Sticking together makes us stronger. So true i put myself as square one but maybe it is a progress as i learnt some new truths and improving my recovery plan. Just praying God let me keep alive through first four days of withdrawals and i commit to rest of work . My friend said you will make it that he had feeling i would . So reassured. Doing it alone in house is scary but this is the way i have to do this. Tomorrow hope will feel stronger physically and walk. This was worst slip ever although not so long and the same amount but wtds are the most horrid ever. Anxiety terrible. I m gonna make a poster to put on my fridge to read every day : never forget this day one and suffering to remeber. XD
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Welcome back, Lipstuck. I'm glad you realize you're not back at square one, but are continuing to learn and grow in sobriety. You can do this and I am very happy you are here--best wishes on your sober journey.
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