Day 17 huge trigger
 

I’ve been doing great. AA almost everyday, I have a sponsor and have been feeling gratitude and pretty strong. I’ve canceled a trip to Vegas, told most of my friends, been extremely cautious going to stores (anxiety because of the alcohol). I’ve been pretty on top of triggers ect.
I’ve been watching a family members dog for awhile while they were out of town. They came to pick the pup up, and gifted me bottles of vodka and rum from their trip. I froze. I was so not expecting that, which I should have, as we are big drinking buddies, whom I haven’t told yet that I have quit.

Man my alcoholic voice had a field day with this.... “Just give it to the hubby he can put it in his safe” “just hide it for a rainy day, you can’t waste alcohol” “you won’t drink it, just put it in the cabinet for guests” “don’t waste it!!” man it tried to convince me to keep it. I ended up smashing the bottles and throwing them away. Even when I thought to just throw them in the garbage i swear the voice said I could fish them out later if I needed too. Well what a day. Felt like I got hit by a bus after that ordeal. Next step tell EVERYONE in my life I have quit.

Well done getting rid of that poison. 😀

Good job Kiki... I use to throw my Captian Morgan bottles, ( half-full) into our pool. I have been clean for almost 9 months. You can do it !

Way to go! Pouring booze out was therapeutic for me the couple of times I did it. AV kicking and screaming not to up until the point it's going down the drain then it's suddenly powerless again. I like showing my AV it's powerless.

I'm glad you disposed of them Kiki :)
congrats on day 17 :)

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Great job- surprises like that are terrible! Sounds like you have a good plan started- keep going! Definitely a story for your sponsor or something that might pop into your head in a meeting one day :lmao

Glad you got rid of it. :)

Tough choice but it is the correct one. Eventually they get easier. Today I celebrate 5 months to the day of my last drink. There have been easy times and hard times,but it all came down to the choices I made. I do not want the hangover nor the guilt of having that drink my AV thinks I need.

Grats Kiki and Marcutah, for real. I've only been on this site for a couple of days, but I am floored at the levels of authenticity and desire to be clean by all. :You_Rock_

Something about broken glass and determination can be quite propelling in carrying us forward to what we do want in our lives!!!

Congrats on your recovery. One day at a time. Woohoo!

Thank you! Smashing them was very cathortic, and i knew there would be no way to retrieve them from the trash after that. I did put them in a disposable aluminum pan first then went to town. It seriously made me feel better!