Dandelion12

Ive got that voice inside my head ssying "your life is ruined anyway. Why suffer"?

I just cant stand thinking about it anymore

aasharon90

Dandelion, have you ever had Dandelion Tea?

I read about it sometime ago and picked me
up some from Walmart and have fallen in love
with it.

Here is a link to click on to show you what
it looks like.

https://www.walmart.com/ip/TRADITION...16&athena=true


I bought a box this morning and you
were in my thoughts.

Please stay strong and positive as kind
caring folks share their own support and
concern as we gently guide you in a positive
direction to help you get heathy in your life.

Dandelion12

I havent tried it but will pick some up on Saturday. Thank you.


Im trying to stay sane until then.

Its horrible knowing i have no one here to rely on. Im turning to God.

aasharon90

Having faith in God is good as I rely on
Him for strength, love, care and guidance
each day I wake up sober.

I also believe that He would want me to
do the footwork in helping myself remain
sober. Doing everything I can to learn new
ways to achieve health and happiness.

We can ask in Prayers daily what it is
we are seeking and He hears us. But
He wont grant us anything immediately,
but rather it will be granted in His time.

Mean while, while we are awaiting for
His reply, we continue to ask for His will
to be done. What would He want you, me,
us do this very day.

Continue to move forward in a soberly
fashion, listening, learning, absorbing,
and applying all the tools and knowledge
of your recovery program and incorporate
it on a continuous bases. Then the rest will
follow.

August252015

Everything you are describing is what was normal for a lot of us, including me. Not drinking was the only gig that mattered at first, where you are. Whatever I could do to self soothe other than drink was fine.

We can't tell you when things will shift forward but if you stay sober, they will. It happened in stages for me, physically, emotionally, mentally, all of it.

Dandelion12

Thanks so much for the encouagement and wisdom.

Im going to need it tonight. Im sober, but not in a good place

tekink

I was never sober as an adult so I didn’t know how to be sober either.


I was a complete mess emotionally for a solid 6-7 months with mood swings and brain fog.

It took me a while but eventually things just clicked. A big part of it was just realizing I didn’t need a drink to have fun, because I was board, happy or sad, out doing something fun, socializing, house work, or any other thing in my life I thought was enhanced by booze

Dandelion12

Thanks so much for the encouagement and wisdom.

Im going to need it tonight. Im sober, but not in a good place

Dandelion12

Thanks so much for the encouagement and wisdom.

Im going to need it tonight. Im sober, but not in a good place

I take everything out on myself and I cant stop self destructing.

Buckley3

A lot of us have. And a lot of peeps around here and out in the 3d world have faced even more grim circumstances and gone on to find peace and live fruitful lives.

Don't end it. Living sober is where it's at. It just sucks right now. Let it. Keep showing up everyday sober. Try to focus on little things you can do - 1 or 2 - each day. Include rest and 'me' days of shameless self-indulgence in creature comforts. We need to learn self compassion.

Educate yourself on addiction. This is a great resource here to do so.
You'll learn that you are not at all alone in the life you've lived and the fears you are facing. That alone - knowing you aren't alone or some kind of monster or freak - helps greatly with the anxiety.

Last but not at all least. Start visualizing things you can and want to do with the sober life ahead. Yoga? Living in a hut on a beach somewhere? Working in some ma and pa shop that produces something good for the world? Starting your own biz?

Keep it practical, but don't be afraid to stretch a bit. And then... start asking perhaps the most important and empowering question:

'Why not me?'

Why not you? There's still a lot of good living ahead mate. You just have to show up sober and go get it. Little by little, bit by bit.

Best to you-

B

Dee74

Hi and welcome Dandelion12

no I had no experience with sober adulthood either - but I learned pretty quick. The community here was a great help - I know we can help you too
why not check out our September support thread? https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...rt-one-18.html

congrats on your week

D

Free2bme888

Hi

What I’m hearing is a very depressed person who has thoughts of suicide given the perception of hopelessness you have expressed.

I’m very concerned and urge you to call a crisis hotline toll free for your province/state/country.

Please

We are also a support, but we are not professional —-as it sounds you need. Health-mental and physical first, then you can deal with pets and utilities and bills later.

Please

Dandelion12

Im not going to baker acted in the state of florida, taken from my pets, let go after 72 hours with no help and then be billed an enormous sum i dont have for it.

I have no one to rely on but myself. No ones going to come visit or help me in a hospital.

People who try to help by suggesting these crisis lines know not what they do.

If they caused me anymore trauma right now id never make it back.

I want healng, not more drama

I came here fir support to not drink over my anxiety. Im 7 days sober off a binge. I need time and support. Pets and bills later? Should i let them die and lose my home?

Hawkeye13

I felt huge anxiety and fear, plus a good dose of anger and self-loathing for a few weeks when I quit. All the feelings I had been drinking to get away from. It will get better and if you can let yourself feel them they will lesson over time.

As hard as things are you can heal and have a new beginning. Many here have.

Dandelion12

Thank you. I needed to hear that so badly this morning. Thanks so much

Free2bme888

Please accept my apologies

No harm meant

Dee74

Hi Dandelion

Noones going to force you to do anything you don't want to do here - you're among friends.

We try to help but yeah - sometimes we don't have all the relevant info about you yet.

Every suggestion is coming from a place of love and care

D