Totally annoyed at myself
 

I had a few weeks...mostly forced due to feeling like I was dying from an unrelated kidney infection. Felt fantastic...my chronic anxiety went away..physically way better....and of course, I started up again. What the hell is wrong with me? I know exactly what the cause of all my misery is.
It's no baffling secret. but I can't put it down :(

I'll get addicted to anything..and super compulsive...It's the way I am...I know I should channel that into a healthy addiction...I have before. I need to find the energy to start again...and I can't seem to do it...

Hi Patterson
A lot of us have had the hope that maybe all we needed was a break, or simply to cut back...but that never lasts for long.

my recovery started when I stopped looking at it like a diet - it's a permanent holistic lifestyle change - and it's a good change.

It all starts with a day one - you have it in you to do 24 hours yeah? :)

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I hope you'll utilize the support here to help you get sober for good. :)

Patt,

Ime...the good news are those physical and mental lingering problems are what helped me get this far.

The bad news is it only gets worse w each relapse.

Eventually, we go crazy and die.

I stopped before I died. I am pretty sure I am a bit crazy from too much drinking.

But, I am getting better by the second.

Thanks.

Yes you can. You just did for a few weeks because of your kidney infection.

Seems like there might be some useful information there.

Best of Luck on Your Journey! :ring