On to Day 3
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Someone had written something in an earlier post that I really agree to. In chronic relapsers like me, the AV says, “you know you’re eventually going to drink again, so why not just have 1 now.” I need to work on telling myself that I don’t have to drink again like I have in the past, which is why I don’t have to have that 1.
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My AV says stupid things too. It now likes to say that since I quit , if it came to it I could quit again, stupid AV just won't get what " quit" means.
Your AV is the one saying /labeling/defining You as a chronic relapser, tell it to bugger off , tell it You are now instead a chronic abstainer
Your AV is the one saying /labeling/defining You as a chronic relapser, tell it to bugger off , tell it You are now instead a chronic abstainer
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Hi Darin and Freedom, I'm on Day 3 too, congrats to you both! Sleep is still messed up, but that's ok, I can take sleepy and sober any time. Like a doc said to me, a bad night's sleep won't kill you, but a bad night's drinking sure can.
I can often telecommute and chose to do so today, even though I was "supposed" to be in the office. I've been a chronic relapser too, for maaaany years. Lost count to be honest. But, I think I am finally getting through my skull and past my AV that: I have a disease called alcoholism; and this disease will kill me if don't make it a top priority from the time my feet hit the floor until my head hits the pillow. I need to question every single decision through the sobriety lens.
While I've had many multi-day, 24 hour binges, right now I'm working and not getting the craving urge until about 3. I know it, and can head it off. Yesterday I took a 3pm work break, had a big mid-afternoon meal and went for a walking meditation. And I came, read and posted here.
It did the trick. Feeling optimistic today.
Let's do this!
I can often telecommute and chose to do so today, even though I was "supposed" to be in the office. I've been a chronic relapser too, for maaaany years. Lost count to be honest. But, I think I am finally getting through my skull and past my AV that: I have a disease called alcoholism; and this disease will kill me if don't make it a top priority from the time my feet hit the floor until my head hits the pillow. I need to question every single decision through the sobriety lens.
While I've had many multi-day, 24 hour binges, right now I'm working and not getting the craving urge until about 3. I know it, and can head it off. Yesterday I took a 3pm work break, had a big mid-afternoon meal and went for a walking meditation. And I came, read and posted here.
It did the trick. Feeling optimistic today.
Let's do this!
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Join Date: Oct 2016
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No cravings still. A lot of regret is coming up for me because of things lost and other destruction. I am trying to just let it go by telling me it was Gods will and part of his ultimate plan for me.
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