1stepup

Can't sleep, my head won't switch off, had some peace of mind earlier but now my minds racing......

FreedomCA

Relationships have also been my downfall and led to relapse. I used to be intimate with guys to get them to like me, but that only led to me feeling lonelier and empty. I was recently talking to this guy and texting and we had a great friendship going. He told me that he would end it unless I finally met him and was intimate. He said he was done with the chatting. I told him I at least wanted to have coffee first, and he said no. So I agreed to end it and have also blocked him because that was hurtful. In the past I would have given him what he wanted because I liked him. Not anymore. I need to make these changes to stay sober and so I am only looking for friends right now. He could have met another woman for that and I would not have cared. I guess he didn’t want my friendship.

1stepup

I'm back again, loads of stuff has happened but basically I'm drinking more and more to numb emotional pain.....

least

Drinking doesn't actually numb the pain, it just puts it off a bit. It will be right there waiting for you when the alcohol wears off and you've sobered up. I hope you can stop drinking.

Jules714

Drinking in my experience made everything worse.
​​​​​Prolonged the hurt I was attempting to hurdle. I forgot how to cope w/o vodka. Vodka was not "coping" anymore.
You can stop the craziness drinking brings to your life and get rid of a huge part of the problem.
We can be co dependant. AA does suggest not dating for a year. My sponsor will tell you I ignored that suggestion...not her favourite move of mine. They are all probably right bc I've gotten myself into quite a quandry as of late.
Here's the great news, I did it sober. With help from here, my people in AA & bc I can.
​If I can; you can. It's the best way to live for me. In recovery. Somehow this perspective, this disease is a gift.
Keep talking about what is on your mind.
Jules

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