Al31

Day off yesterday and drank all day.

Last night something kinda switch a little in my head. I hope so anyway.

Today wad easier somehow. Only minor shakes. Headache came and went. Irritation probably worse side effect today. Feel run down and got a sore throat so maybe that distracted me.

Anyway. I am shattered!! Absolutely shattered. So off to bed.... sober. Night all

Delilah1

Welcome back!

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All sobriety starts with a day one.

Dee74

you're doing it al = congrats

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Michael2018

Good to see you back Al. Sorry to see the tapering plan didn't work, but many of us have been there, and so can relate.

Earlier in the week you said if this last attempt alone didn't work you would get help. Do you feel ready now to go for help?

doggonecarl

Ditto what Michael posted, there's help for the struggle.

Al31

Half way through day two.

Anxiety and irratable.

I've decided not to get external help. I dont feel ready to talk to someone about. But let's see how i get on this time.

Thanks for comments as well all

Aardvajk

Best wishes, Al. We all know what hell the first few days can be like.

I can only speak for myself, but I had to get the help of others before I could stop my cycle of quitting then relapsing. The mind that got me into my mess was never going to get me out of it.

I hope whatever you choose to do works for you though.

Radix

Do things that are fun and distracting. Break up your routine. Enjoy yourself!

Best of luck.

Gabe1980

Good on you Al, ask for help if you need it. Keep going x

Dee74

I expect you'll get on the same as you did last time and time before that, Al, cos thats how it worked for me. Always back to drinking.

I assumed that all I needed to do was try. or try harder - when it was obviously that just trying not to drink - without making any real changes in my life - was futile.

No ones trying to force you to do anything you don;t want to do - but I think sometimes we do have to step out of our comfort zone if we want change.

Even posting here daily could be a change?

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Hevyn

Congratulations on your Day 2 - we all know how difficult these early days are, but things will ease up.

Al31

Day 2 done. In bed.

Tiredness is unreal. Wasn't nice to be around.

Dee, i get your point. I didnt drink from 1st Jan till 10th of March this year. Although alcohol has a stronger hold now, i have learnt from that experience and i know i cant be a normal drinker. Which right now sucks.

I think the difference i want to do this time differently is work on interests that have nothing to do with alcohol. And also look into why i use addictions. I want to explore my religion more as well.

Anyway. I'm beyond tired lol.

Hope day three is better. Night night

Hevyn

I was exhausted in the beginning...I hope you can get a good sleep.