In filth
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In filth
I just want to say my alcohol binges never have any fun for me. I got 2 months maybe off pretending I'm okay, then find myself in some way, literally on the street or luckily on some forniture. Hopefully out of the cold, but always a filthy mess likely his throat bleeding now. And what has this become, when 1 month ago I got a house, a job, things were looking up.
Yet every time seemingly according to season like clockwork, maybe more frequent, maybe minorly the other way I become a pool on the ground unaware of my surroundings. Functioning alcoholic? I never knew the word. I destroy everything with my drinking, mostly myself, and I don't care who knows.
Yet every time seemingly according to season like clockwork, maybe more frequent, maybe minorly the other way I become a pool on the ground unaware of my surroundings. Functioning alcoholic? I never knew the word. I destroy everything with my drinking, mostly myself, and I don't care who knows.
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Tonight I almost lost a dear friend. All she wanted was my time for a week. I was completely wrecked to the needing a hospital visit. The type of drinking where IF you wake up in the morning, you're blacked out inchohesive by 8. Maybe you've vomited all over yourself.
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What I alwaysplan. Take all the right steps. Take and adhere to the medication I'm supposed to take. This last time I began working a program. I have a house, finally and very important when you've been on the street. I have work, very good, or so they tell you. And I do all the things they tell me to do and I feel like a ******* sham.
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Sounds like good things. I started feeling like you about the world at the end of my drinking days. My perspective is much better now. One thing I do know for sure is the world never gets better for me if I continue drinking.
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