Highercall

A bad couple of weeks today has been hell. I went out on a bender brought a girl back who stole my keys and my money.

I hope this is my bottom I can't live like this anymore.

jbhall

You're right, you can't go on like this. When was the last time you were sober? Do you have a friend or family member you can confide in to help you during weakness? You've got lots of friends here.

doggonecarl

This will only be your bottom if you quit drinking. If you keep drinking you may be surprised how much lower you can get.

Refresh my memory. What are you doing, recovery wise, to address your alcoholism?

least

It can be your bottom if you stop digging now. I hope you can get sober before something worse happens to you.

Highercall

My keys and money stolen. I went 19 days without alcohol in January ever since then drinking every day more or less

Highercall

I don't know what to do to get sober. The effect it has on me is horrendous

jbhall

Try to remember that you accomplished that in January, which means you can do it again. I hope this IS bottom for you. I wish you great strength.

Purpleman

Highercall I'll bet good money you know exactly what to do to get sober. The stumbling block is making the decision to take the first few steps

D122y

Higher,

I don't have any advice. I can't relate at this point.

I had mental and physical issues that helped me quit.

I was able to do it, so far, only by the grace of God.

I curled up in a ball and prayed. Many people don't believe in God, so to them this sounds like a load of bull.

That is all I have to try and help you.

Thanks.

yinzer

I remember you on that sober streak, highercall. You can do it again. Sounds like the current situation is a loser for you for sure.

Dee74

I'm sorry your still struggling HC.

I had to face facts, Whatever I was doing to stay sober wasn;t working. I decided to commit to posting here regularly and especially when I felt like drinking - before not after.

I made I commitment to not just post and tun but stay online to have people talk me through the very bad idea of drinking again.

If that alone ois not working for you maybe it's time to check out AA or some other meeting based group, or a counsellor, a Dr?

whatever it takes for change to occur man.

D

NerfThis

Having seen all your previous posts including all the suggestions members have given you, I'm not sure what further advice to give you at this point.

You seem to only post to describe your latest terrible bender. How about posting before you drink so that we can talk you out of it? Did you ever go to AA? You mentioned that 'some people' are against AA. Did you go to a meeting and find out for yourself?

Do you want to be sober more than you want to drink?

lessgravity

I can see myself in your posts and how you continue to cycle in and out of wanting to get sober with horrible decisions to drink again.

But I'm afraid you can fall a lot farther than this if you continue your drinking. There's so much advice that's been given to you here. To say you don't know how to stop is not true. Instead you just don't want it enough.

It takes work, it takes owning it, it takes responsibility to stop drinking. It's clear just how badly you want to stop drinking - can you commit?

tekink

It's really hard at first, that's why we are all here! There's only one way to get sober.

Anna

I'm sorry for what happened to you, HC. I do hope you decide that today is the day to turn things around and start living a sober life. You know how to do this.

Aardvajk

I feel for you, HC. I relapsed last year after a while sober and I know how horrific it is cycling it and out and watching yourself destroy yourself. "...know[ing] loneliness like few do." is the expression which comes to mind.

I'm also sorry you have either not been able to investigate or not found help via the suggestions that have been offered to you. I know that I personally cannot do this on my own or even with the support of non-alcoholic friends. Personally only the support of other people with the same illness as me has ever made any difference.

Wishing you the very best.

OceanGuy

Uh...did you call the police? Several crimes were committed and that female should be arrested and prosecuted and thrown in prison.

DontRemember

I needed to be 'shown/told' what to work at to stop drinking,by other drunks. For me court ordered AA got me on track and with that I was more accepting to the advice given here. Before AA I didn't take much away from this site because I was a stubborn egomaniac that could 'figure it out myself'. A lot of folks only need to use this site,but they listened and took on the advice,unlike I was doing.

Michael2018

You don't need to go on like this Highercall.

What are your plans for today and tomorrow?