FreedomCA

Continuing on to Day 5. Already feeling better and notice that I’m becoming functional again. Just have to stay away from the “shoulda, woulda, couldves.”

gettingsmarter

Keep it going! Great job.

D122y

Free,

The shine of not drinking took a while to wear off for me. Probably over a year.

I am heavily kindled and I will surely die if I ever drink again.

That is what I tell myself anyway.

I almost let my av convince me I could drink again twice. I made it through and am feeling better than ever because of it.

I use sr to hold myself accountable as much as I can.

I don't want to be that guy that comes here after my relapse and gets all the sad counseling.

Whatever it takes to stay pure.

Thanks.

FreedomCA

Assuming you would make it back here alive after a relapse to hear all of the sad counseling. 😂

FreedomCA

I told my friend today that the reason why I feel this attempt will stick is because I experienced a new level of desperation. It’s like I felt that I was drowning, and that I had one last chance to grab the raft.

FreedomCA

Had a huge craving today and almost ordered in a bottle of Chardonnay. I called someone from AA and that helped me. I hadn’t eaten anything all day and so the hamburger I ate majorly helped the craving pass. So glad I am still sober. I would have regretted the decision to drink. Also, this guy on an online dating site ended up being a real jerk, and so even though I told him to leave me alone with a pejorative word and I blocked his phone number, being sober is helping me let go of the situation. If I was drinking, I would still be verbally retaliating or making more of a mess out of the situation.

D122y

I had some sort of sugar issues, go figure, that caused me to crave all the time.

I needed snacks in the car and always had granola and licorice around. This curbed the craves.

I stayed full. Sweets trick the brain. My AA buddy told me that.

Now I can go all day without eating. Now I generally go 16 hours, counting sleping, before I eat for 8. I have 2 or 3 eating sessions now in 8 hours.

But for the first year of no booze, i ate constantly. But, I worked out 4 to 7 days a week. Both helped me clean it up.

Thanks.