Still drinking and bad neuropathy I have come to the conclusion that I don't really want to give up. Done a few meetings and come away and still drink. I am on 3 bottles a day. I have closeted myself in the house. Death is inevitable.. |
Don’t give up! You can do this! I know how hard it is but don’t let yourself give up. Life is too precious. Please please please don’t give up on getting sober. You have such a light to your life. I see it in your posts. Letting the alcohol kill you is not the right answer. |
I'm sorry, sweetichick. Perhaps it's time to try inpatient rehab? You seem to be having a really hard time doing it on your own. I don't mean that in a bad way. Many people need more direct help. Do you truly, way deep down, want to live a sober life? That is crucial before any type of treatment will help. I hope you will seriously consider going inpatient. |
When you drink like we do/did sweetichick we get very fatalistic. Death doesn't really seem that big a deal...until you really do nearly die and then trust me every cell in your body will want to live.... I'm confident the real you doesn't want to die - you want to get well - regain your mobility and your health, claim back your life and be happy and mend broken relationships. Don't let your addiction rob you of the opportunity to do that. D |
Maybe I am just on a bipolar low day. I feel so dreadful all the time I feel just like wiping myself out all the time. It's only barely working the alcohol now. Maybe I am still grieving the loss of my ex. |
Drinking makes us depressed. :( It's possible to stop drinking and live a normal happy life. Maybe inpatient is a good idea. You've been trying to get sober for a while now. :( |
Hey sweetichick I'm sure that if you did a poll of sober alcoholics worldwide you would find that a very high percentage of them didn't want to give up either, but they did because they knew that there was a better life waiting for them. Just think about how much you miss your daughter and that Christmas card we talked about, there's a reason to quit right there. You've come so far, you really can do this. |
Sweetichick, you know drinking isn't going to make anything better in the long run. Alcohol ends up betraying us all. Why not try something different? Something that could give you a chance at improving your life. I also like the inpatient idea. |
Thanks for the replies guys . I will try to at least cut down today. |
Why aren't the meetings working though?? They seem to work for everyone else. |
Originally Posted by sweetichick
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Why aren't the meetings working though?? They seem to work for everyone else. |
What worked for me was getting a sponsor and working the steps. I still like going to the meetings. I think working the actual steps was/is the biggest part of AA for me. |
I will try something different. Try to get out more. I have been closeted in my house for 8 months now. Ever since I broke up with my ex. |
Sorry to hear about the break up :( I had to really force myself to do things I didn't want to and get out of my comfort zone. I should also mention that I went to outpatient treatment for 6 months as well. That and continued involvement in AA has been totally worth it. |
That's what I need to get out of the comfort zone. |
do you see anyone about your bipolar sweetichick - I think it's important to maintain our mental health along with our recovery? D |
I can't afford inpatient because I have too many loans and no private insurance. Out patient the only thing I know of is free counseling. I will make an appointment. |
It's different everywhere. However I've heard of rehab scholarships/grants too. The money I spent is being recouped just in saving money not buying booze. Plus much more. Glad you're going to make an appointment. |
Originally Posted by Dee74
(Post 7005920)
do you see anyone about your bipolar sweetichick - I think it's important to maintain our mental health along with our recovery? D |
Thanks for asking Dee |
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