FreedomCA

I am going through so much right now. I filed for divorce and now the loneliness is really getting to me, and I have been drinking and making bad decisions. Was able to go to an AA meeting today and did not drink, but my life is in shambles.

Ayers

Hi Freedom. Don't dispair , just take it one minute, one hour , one day at a time - and don't give up. I am sorry about your divorce and loneliness, but it's great that you went to an AA meeting.

I promise you .... it WILL get better

MantaLady

Hi Freedom, sorry to hear your having such a rough time emotionally right now and power to you for getting to AA and through day 1! That takes an enormous amount of courage. Like Ayers says, one day, one hour, one minute at a time. Try not to overload yourself and keep busy, it does get better and you deserve better for yourself. Maybe try some online SMART meetings, I found that helpful as I don’t feel so alone and it stops me completely isolating. Keep posting, be kind to yourself and know that you have support here at SR and you are not alone. xx

Gerard52

Freedom CA, by not drinking your misery will be shorter. Day 1 is tough well done. I would advise going to AA as much as you can, I found it really helped focus my mind in first month.

Dee74

I'm sorry you've been drinking but I'm glad you made it back FreedomCA.

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Nonsensical

Welcome back FCA!
I found that creating a new life can be a messy process. I often felt things were in a shambles on my road to freedom.

Best of Luck on Your Journey!

FreedomCA

Thanks everyone. So far doing well on Day 2. Looks like I was able to salvage my job, as I am working today. Then heading to an AA meeting after work. I have one meeting in particular that I feel really comfortable at, and it meets 5 days each week. It's amazing how quickly alcohol can damage our lives and bring us misery since we just don't stop drinking and make bad decisions.

FreedomCA

That’s where I’m trying to get to. To a place enjoying being single. I was casually hooking up with guys in the past few months to fill that void, but I was only getting emotionally hurt in the end and then drinking. I’m looking to build more friendships with both women and men.

FreedomCA

Just got out of a meeting on Day 2. Feeling more optimistic.

Hawking22

Good for you, Freedom! Loss of a relationship is so difficult, but being in a bad relationship and/or lonely and drunk is worse

It seems like good things are still happening, your job is still there, you're going to AA, and you're making healthy decisions for yourself! I was a Tinder queen for awhile after my break-up so I understand the urge to squash loneliness and feel wanted. You are making a huge decision that requires a lot of attention, focus and work...you're choosing yourself <3

FreedomCA

Thank you. Almost done with Day 3 in 1.5 hours. Meetings are going well.

Delilah1

Hi Freedom, it is great to see you back again.

FreedomCA

Yes, it feels good to be back. I was out there for quite a bit. It was starting to get bad for me.

FreedomCA

It’s good to be out of that marriage since we both have substance use problems. He still doesn’t seem interested in getting help although he seems to be working as well. But being lonely and drunk obviously isn’t good, and I was also drinking and meeting people which was getting to be unsafe.

FreedomCA

I was missing obligations, missing work and my body was getting physically ill from all the drinking. I had to stop 4 days ago or else I think I was going to end up in the hospital or hurt in another way.

FreedomCA

It seems like a miracle that I made it back.

Outonthetiles

Congrats on four days, FCA!

yinzer

One day at a time. It’s hard at first after loss of a relationship, but after time I learned to like myself more and enjoy my alone time.

Ayers

You are on the right track now ! Well done