MantaLady

Frick hit the nail on the head. Reasons for doing something radical like going to Thailand need to be understood. My choice was mainly down to money as rehab is very very expensive in the U.K. and I wanted to do something that centred on meditation and mindfulness. Believe me, it was no holiday lol. Getting up at 6am to do mandatory exercise in 32 degree heat, the bugs, not being allowed out to explore Thailand all was hard. I had many many meltdowns, I cried, I got angry, I threatened to leave twice! You have to surrender completely and go through and sit with your emotions. I know it sounds great being in Aisa and thousands of miles from home but it was the hardest thing I have ever done.

A good sober network out of rehab is also essential as that is when the real work started x

wildflower70

It almost sounds like I would be better off taking some more time off of work, detox at home, and find a better support system.

I know I can do this, I am going to do this. September 1 is my day 1...hell or high water..

Radix

I can see the utility of destination rehab... it can feel like a reboot, it gets you away from your habits, and you have lots of emotional support available, often in a nice setting where things are pleasant.

However, my advice would be to not leave for destination rehab without a solid support network in place when you return. It can be less of a reboot, and more like a temporary vacation, unless you pay attention to things at home that support or enable your old habits. That preparation can be done prior to leaving or while away, but it's best not left neglected.

Best of luck to you.

wildflower70

I have no support system here...no family, friends, just my work.

It's not enough anymore..I could live anywhere right now, as I have no real ties here...

I think I miss having close connections with people, I'm all alone here

wildflower70

I'm feeling really sick....reaching out for advice...

I'm not well enough to leave the house, I need to take a few days to get well again, I know this is going to be rough, I also know I can do it...

Is it ok to put everything on the back burner??Job, responsibilities?

I need the time now to go through the dark side...I'm ready

doggonecarl

Did you care what you put on the back burner when you drank?

Then don't worry what goes on the back burner now that you've quit. Sobriety has to be the priority.

Radix

doggonecarl gives good advice. There's been plenty on the back burner for quite some time now. Leave it there for the time being, and do what you need to do to get well.

Kaytea

Put yourself first. Everything else can go on the back burner.

wildflower70

I am not drinking and I will not drink today.

Tomorrow I will repeat this phrase....

I'm getting off the slippery slope. I can already feel the ground beneath me, I'm stable with no serious withdrawal symptoms.

I also know, I was lucky this time, and if drinking continues, my luck will run out.

Thank you SR

Dee74

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Inchworm

I'm pulling for you!