Blogs


Notices

Rollercoaster early Recovery Day2

Old 08-27-2018, 04:44 PM
  # 1 (permalink)  
Beautifully Broken
Thread Starter
 
Jam13's Avatar
 
Join Date: May 2018
Location: USA
Posts: 47
Rollercoaster early Recovery Day2

Yesterday was hard, very hard. I was shaking inside, out, stomach in knots, nauseated, got virtually no sleep last night, night sweats but I was determined.
Today, got out my Celebrate Recovery workbooks, prayed, relaxed, felt some better....then the depression hit me like a ton of bricks this evening.
Sitting in my room crying, reading SR and finding strength in all of your stories.
I know I can never drink again.
I donít want to. I just hate how addicted my body became to that poison that I am sick without it.
But Iím not giving in, I will get past this...in a few days Iíll feel much better.
I just needed to vent.
I hate this monster.
I just have to hang on and keep forging ahead.
I donít EVER have to feel this way again.
Thank you all!
Jam13 is offline  
The Following 8 Users Say Thank You to Jam13 For This Useful Post:
Dee74 (08-28-2018), DreamCatcher17 (08-28-2018), John65 (08-28-2018), least (08-27-2018), Sober369 (08-27-2018), TeeJayVerm (08-27-2018), whopper (08-27-2018), yinzer (08-28-2018)
Old 08-27-2018, 04:47 PM
  # 2 (permalink)  
bona fido dog-lover
 
least's Avatar
 
Join Date: Mar 2008
Location: eastern USA
Posts: 84,794
Blog Entries: 32
Yes, early recovery can be a rough ride for a while. But if you stay sober, it will get better.
least is online now  
The Following 6 Users Say Thank You to least For This Useful Post:
Dee74 (08-28-2018), Jam13 (08-27-2018), John65 (08-28-2018), Sober369 (08-27-2018), TeeJayVerm (08-27-2018), whopper (08-27-2018)
Old 08-27-2018, 04:47 PM
  # 3 (permalink)  
Beautifully Broken
Thread Starter
 
Jam13's Avatar
 
Join Date: May 2018
Location: USA
Posts: 47
I was getting anxious about having to work tomorrow and how I will do.
I usually cry all the way home, anyway. My body was usually screaming for a drink 2 hours before quitting time and I was so anxious I couldn’t wait to get home to drink.
Praying my body heals quickly.
Jam13 is offline  
The Following 4 Users Say Thank You to Jam13 For This Useful Post:
Dee74 (08-28-2018), John65 (08-28-2018), least (08-27-2018), Sober369 (08-27-2018)
Old 08-27-2018, 04:51 PM
  # 4 (permalink)  
Member
 
Join Date: Jul 2018
Posts: 1,285
Jam,

It sounds like you have a good plan: workbooks and SR. Ride it out-it gets better. Iím cheering you on!
Atlast9999 is offline  
The Following 4 Users Say Thank You to Atlast9999 For This Useful Post:
Dee74 (08-28-2018), Jam13 (08-27-2018), John65 (08-28-2018), Sober369 (08-27-2018)
Old 08-27-2018, 05:21 PM
  # 5 (permalink)  
Member
 
Sober369's Avatar
 
Join Date: Feb 2017
Location: Georgia, USA
Posts: 1,770
Hang in there Jam! Feel better fast. Lots of liquids, sleep when you can, reading recovery stuff, and feel the hope you have. Don't let your past dictate your future. Please let us know how you're doing!
Sober369 is offline  
The Following 2 Users Say Thank You to Sober369 For This Useful Post:
Dee74 (08-28-2018), John65 (08-28-2018)
Old 08-27-2018, 11:16 PM
  # 6 (permalink)  
Member
 
Join Date: Jul 2018
Posts: 1,635
Hi jam - in my experience it took 7 days and I began feeling physically much much better. They seem long in the moment but itís not really a long time...

Hang in there. Yo can do 7 days for the reward of getting your life back
Be123 is offline  
The Following 2 Users Say Thank You to Be123 For This Useful Post:
Dee74 (08-28-2018), John65 (08-28-2018)
Old 08-28-2018, 12:20 AM
  # 7 (permalink)  
Administrator
 
Dee74's Avatar
 
Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
Posts: 187,763
Blog Entries: 1
You;re not alone Jam - we're here with you - you can do this!

D
Dee74 is offline  
The Following User Says Thank You to Dee74 For This Useful Post:
John65 (08-28-2018)

Currently Active Users Viewing this Thread: 1 (0 members and 1 guests)
 
Posting Rules
You may not post new threads
You may not post replies
You may not post attachments
You may not edit your posts

BB code is On
Smilies are On
[IMG] code is On
HTML code is Off
Trackbacks are On
Pingbacks are On
Refbacks are Off




All times are GMT -7. The time now is 07:04 PM.