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I'm sitting here, at the bar, on my lunch break. Downing one too many glasses of wine. I know if I continue down this path, the outcome isn't going to be in my favor. I don't know how to break this habit. I'm slowly throwing my life away. I desperately want to get clean, but fail at every attempt I make. I'm on the verge of losing everything I worked so hard for, but lost as to how I'm going to make it out. I'm hating my life and the person I've become. I wish I was normal.
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Originally Posted by brebee 
I'm sitting here, at the bar, on my lunch break. Downing one too many glasses of wine. I know if I continue down this path, the outcome isn't going to be in my favor. I don't know how to break this habit. I'm slowly throwing my life away. I desperately want to get clean, but fail at every attempt I make. I'm on the verge of losing everything I worked so hard for, but lost as to how I'm going to make it out. I'm hating my life and the person I've become. I wish I was normal.
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Join Date: Jan 2018
Location: North Yorkshire UK
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I wish i knew what normal was!
Put down the glass. Get your stuff and leave. Go for a walk. Clear your head. Buy a bottle of water and a sandwich and check back in.
You can do this. Enough now.
Put down the glass. Get your stuff and leave. Go for a walk. Clear your head. Buy a bottle of water and a sandwich and check back in.
You can do this. Enough now.
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Join Date: Jan 2014
Posts: 8,637
you're as "normal" as me....
I was right where you are....
I'm now in year 5 of sobriety....
Life is so much better....
it all started - from right where you are - with a choice.
I didn't just "want" to get clean...
I CHOSE to LIVE SOBER.
Then I supported that choice with action.
It has been the best choice I ever made.
You can choose it, too.
Are you ready?
If so.... make the choice. Now.
Then support it with action. Now.
Choose.
Then stand up and leave that bar and the rest of the alcohol on the table.
I was right where you are....
I'm now in year 5 of sobriety....
Life is so much better....
it all started - from right where you are - with a choice.
I didn't just "want" to get clean...
I CHOSE to LIVE SOBER.
Then I supported that choice with action.
It has been the best choice I ever made.
You can choose it, too.
Are you ready?
If so.... make the choice. Now.
Then support it with action. Now.
Choose.
Then stand up and leave that bar and the rest of the alcohol on the table.
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Join Date: Mar 2008
Location: SF Bay area, CA
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Welcome to the family. 
First thing is STOP DRINKING. If you have any alcohol at home, dump it out and don't buy anymore. It all starts with day one, the first day you don't drink. The withdrawal isn't fun but once it's over (usually a few days) you will start to feel better.
Take advantage of the support here to bolster your commitment to sobriety. If you feel like drinking, post instead so we can talk you out of it.
First thing is STOP DRINKING. If you have any alcohol at home, dump it out and don't buy anymore. It all starts with day one, the first day you don't drink. The withdrawal isn't fun but once it's over (usually a few days) you will start to feel better. Take advantage of the support here to bolster your commitment to sobriety. If you feel like drinking, post instead so we can talk you out of it.
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Join Date: Feb 2018
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I think pretty much all of us have felt the way you do now and I greatly sympathize.
You've been given the best piece of advice here by multiple people. The only way to stop how you're feeling is to put down the drink and STOP drinking.
It isn't easy, but you can do it. The first days after quitting are miserable and it feels like drinking is the only way to stop the misery, but that just makes things worse and worse because the alcohol only numbs the depressing feelings temporarily. You have to ride out all those tough days and the tough feelings they cause, because after all that life is so much better.
You've been given the best piece of advice here by multiple people. The only way to stop how you're feeling is to put down the drink and STOP drinking.
It isn't easy, but you can do it. The first days after quitting are miserable and it feels like drinking is the only way to stop the misery, but that just makes things worse and worse because the alcohol only numbs the depressing feelings temporarily. You have to ride out all those tough days and the tough feelings they cause, because after all that life is so much better.
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I'm glad you found us and decided to post. That's a good step towards beginning to recover. You have the choice to stop drinking and to be the person you want to be. We do understand how hard this is and we're here to offer support.
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Welcome to a great place for encouragement, Brebee.
I felt exactly the same when I found SR. I was drinking every day - it was always in my system. If it wasn't, I'd get sick & shaky. Being dependent on it made my life miserable & kept me from all the things I loved. What had started out as a fun way to relax had become a necessity. I was so thankful to finally get free. You are never alone - and you can do this.
I felt exactly the same when I found SR. I was drinking every day - it was always in my system. If it wasn't, I'd get sick & shaky. Being dependent on it made my life miserable & kept me from all the things I loved. What had started out as a fun way to relax had become a necessity. I was so thankful to finally get free. You are never alone - and you can do this.
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Join Date: Aug 2018
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Thank you all for your words of encouragement. Today is day one of sobriety. Even though my anxiety is through the roof from withdrawals, I know it will all be worth it in the end. I'm happy I found this community.
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