6 Months
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6 Months
And what a six months it's been.
I'm not the same guy I was 6 months ago. I'm settling in now. I have these new fun skills - I can actually differentiate between different states of mind that arise. I'm able to see self-doubt and old stinkin' thinkin' for what it is most of the time... and then shift gears.
It's easy right now. I'm not really engaged in growing into my new life yet. I won't be for a bit. I'm still confined until mid-January. So I'm treating this time now as a chance to exhale. I'm consolidating. Just today I finally organized 15 years worth of various presentations and material.
Yesterday I ordered a new set of pens, a couple of new journals, and a new leather bag for my laptop and iPad. I've been writing more consistently of late. I'll be starting to consolidate ideas from my professional life into a more cohesive, focused set of models. From there I'll be developing more focused, updated and modular training & presentation programs.
I've landed another opportunity to publish. Today I landed another opportunity to lecture at a local university in October. In October I start collaborating with a couple of colleagues & peers I respect greatly on a new project for next year.
I've been positioning myself all summer. Doing the work. Asking for help. Paying my dues. Owning my ****.
My footprint these days is small but dense. There's little waste in my life right now. I'm grateful.
Next year is going to be amazing. By New Year's I'll be bursting with potential.
It's only possible because I'm sober. There's nothing about booze I miss. Nothing. It was all a lie. I never really liked it much anyway. None of it really. It was just all part of the process of denying myself from experiencing the authentic me. I will never return. No looking back. My life will be a celebration.
Thank you SR.
-B
I'm not the same guy I was 6 months ago. I'm settling in now. I have these new fun skills - I can actually differentiate between different states of mind that arise. I'm able to see self-doubt and old stinkin' thinkin' for what it is most of the time... and then shift gears.
It's easy right now. I'm not really engaged in growing into my new life yet. I won't be for a bit. I'm still confined until mid-January. So I'm treating this time now as a chance to exhale. I'm consolidating. Just today I finally organized 15 years worth of various presentations and material.
Yesterday I ordered a new set of pens, a couple of new journals, and a new leather bag for my laptop and iPad. I've been writing more consistently of late. I'll be starting to consolidate ideas from my professional life into a more cohesive, focused set of models. From there I'll be developing more focused, updated and modular training & presentation programs.
I've landed another opportunity to publish. Today I landed another opportunity to lecture at a local university in October. In October I start collaborating with a couple of colleagues & peers I respect greatly on a new project for next year.
I've been positioning myself all summer. Doing the work. Asking for help. Paying my dues. Owning my ****.
My footprint these days is small but dense. There's little waste in my life right now. I'm grateful.
Next year is going to be amazing. By New Year's I'll be bursting with potential.
It's only possible because I'm sober. There's nothing about booze I miss. Nothing. It was all a lie. I never really liked it much anyway. None of it really. It was just all part of the process of denying myself from experiencing the authentic me. I will never return. No looking back. My life will be a celebration.
Thank you SR.
-B
Keep going, it gets better. 
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Boom.
I am man enough to admit I got chills reading that Buck. Awesome stuff.
If you don't mind, what kind of publishing are you going to be working on?
And your line that alcohol was a lie hits home. It's something I've "known" intellectually for years. But to finally have that knowledge as understanding, as something that is inside me and I believe - that is one of the keys to my sobriety, as I can see it is for you too.
Good stuff brother. Keep it moving.
I am man enough to admit I got chills reading that Buck. Awesome stuff.
If you don't mind, what kind of publishing are you going to be working on?
And your line that alcohol was a lie hits home. It's something I've "known" intellectually for years. But to finally have that knowledge as understanding, as something that is inside me and I believe - that is one of the keys to my sobriety, as I can see it is for you too.
Good stuff brother. Keep it moving.
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Congratulations Buckley, way to go! It seems like your head is in the right place.I know someone in a similar situation but there was a passenger in the car who was hurt but didn't press charges. This person was still out getting smashed the day before going to jail. We don't know if jail will change anything for this individual.
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Originally Posted by Buckley3 
There's nothing about booze I miss. Nothing. It was all a lie.
I think what you say above is key because it puts an end any wishful thoughts about alcohol
Good luck with your upcoming projects.
John
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