jhonnyspa

Hi Magnolia,

Things will get better if you are prepared to stop, some doctors are very judgmental and bias against substance abusers,some treat people harshly so that they can understand the fact that alcohol is killing them and there are doctors whom will do everything in there power to help us.To hazard a guess the doctor maybe upset because taking benzodiazepine with alcohol is deadly.Moreover, you have the power to stop the feelings that you have right now if you surrender your will to your higher power.Good luck and keep posting it helps to know you are not alone.

2muchpain

Would you consider a detox facility? 24 beers is some serious drinking. Dealing with it alone can be very dangerous. John

Magnolia17

First thank you all.
2muchpain I was just" Baker acted" in the state of Florida. I was given a number for a 24 hr "confidential" hotline and they asked me if I ever had suicidal thoughts. My reply "sometimes but I'm really trying to get help for myself"
The next thing I knew something resembling a SWAT team was at my door. They kept me for 3 days and sent me home. I drank. To deal with the embarrassment and fear.

My dogs are my only family. I'm hoping to get some positive support while I detox.

Jim1958

If you need to you can taper off but I just stopped. I felt awful for about 3 days but finally better. I was at about 18 beers a day, so I know where you are coming from. If you think you will be ok, just watch TV and take care of your dogs. The time will pass. If you think you can't make it go to the ER. They have lots of experience in withdrawals. You can make it.

Magnolia17

Thanks so much

Magnolia17

According to conversion chart I only had 6.25 standard drinks today. And no benzos.

I'm hoping to make it through the next week and a half

I get my pension so I can eat

Wednesday I'll go to the food bank

Yes it got that bad

I actually miss my ex husband

Hevyn

6 drinks is way better than 24 - but as others have said, if you feel the need please get to the ER. Detoxing after drinking that heavily is dangerous. It's so good that you're wanting to get your life back. A few rough days & you should start to feel better. Please be careful - we care about you.

Dee74

I understand you being skittish but I really recommend you see a doctor - professional advice is the safest way to detox.

D

PhoenixJ

Mag- I agree with Dee. I was drinking a 5L cask of white wine rot gut a day and decided just over 5y ago to go cold turkey. I had life threatening seizures. When ever you feel like drinking- post. Go to a meeting...do anything you can to not drink. It is hard work, but so way better than being drunk.
Support to you.

2muchpain

I was also Baker acted several years ago. I was a nightmare. The police came in, gave me no time to collect anything like clothes, etc. and dropped off at a hospital. I had no clothes, no dentures and one contact in one eye. No toothpaste or shampoo. Had to walk around the hospital half blind, toothless and wearing a gown. The hospital was no help. Had to wear the same gown for almost the entire stay. Nobody there had the time to provide shampoo, toothpaste or deoderant. I finally complained to the social worker who took care of it so I know what you are talking about. Treated like an animal. Never again. John

Magnolia17

Treated like an animal is right. It devastated me. I still can't believe it happened.

On the way to the hospital in my bathrobe the police tried to take advantage of a woman obviously in distress and asked me if I knew the names of any local drug dealers, leading me to believe that I look like someone who uses illegal drugs. I never have. Anything i take is prescribed by a doctor.

Damaged my already fragile self-esteem further.

Anna

Magnolia and 2muchpain, I am sorry for you both that you had to go through such a degrading situation. There is no need for anyone to be treated like that and no reason you couldn't be allowed 5 minutes to gather your essentials.

Magnolia17

I begged them to just allow me to make sure my dogs had food and water. They refused.


I knew they were going to keep me for the 3 days because I have insurance.

Not surprisingly, many people much more unstable than myself were kicked to the curb because they had none.

I don't even have strength left to get angry or upset. I can't believe I'm living in the United States.

Thank you for the kindness anna

2muchpain

Maybe the most important thing looking forward is that we both managed to get through a horrible situation and move on. Wishing you well. John

Magnolia17

[QUOTE=2muchpain;6988622]Maybe the most important thing looking forward is that we both managed to get through a horrible situation and move on. Wishing you well. John[/QUOTe

Yes thank you. Moving forward and wish you the same

BeerBW

That's how much I was drinking. I tapered for a week, and quit 4 days ago. I was going to try to quit on 1/01/2018. The thought of quitting scared me to death too. I got a prescription of Xanex years ago, so I knew how to handle it. Also, I quit twice for three years each. DO NOT do what I did. You need to call 911 and get detoxed in a hospital. I'm just saying, yes it is possible. My cravings are already almost gone! I've lost 18 lbs. in 14 days to boot.