Alcoholic? Yes. 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, for the last 20 years.
1998 was the year when my gradual decline began... leading me to this moment of time.
When I joined this forum back in 2011, I knew my habit was becoming an obstacle to living a complete and engaging life.
Unfortunately, I only came to the realization about two years ago that it is a serious problem I needed to address. Waiting until the problem became so large that solving it has become a great challenge and obsession... with on again then off again drinking periods over the past year.
The desperation and guilt have been overwhelming. I am analyzing everything I do to the point of paralysis. So much analysis that I can come up with a message regarding my alcoholism in a randomly assigned license plate number.