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Way to go, Dixie! That's a huge step, but I bet it's one that you'll never, ever regret.
The battle that you're fighting is hard enough as it is. No reason to make it even harder by leaving the door open to temptation.
The battle that you're fighting is hard enough as it is. No reason to make it even harder by leaving the door open to temptation.
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Thanks for the encouragement to do the right thing. I just needed a big kick in the pants to do what I needed to do......so a HUGE THANKS being sent out to all!
Today I felt sooooooo depressed and I cried all day long. I have to let go of someone I love with all of my heart and it hurts to let go but I know it is for the best. My heart is being ripped out with no reprieve in sight. All I can do is the best thing for me now which is to stay sober and take care of myself. I dont know why that is so hard but it is something I have to work on for me.
Dixie
Today I felt sooooooo depressed and I cried all day long. I have to let go of someone I love with all of my heart and it hurts to let go but I know it is for the best. My heart is being ripped out with no reprieve in sight. All I can do is the best thing for me now which is to stay sober and take care of myself. I dont know why that is so hard but it is something I have to work on for me.
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I had trouble getting to sleep last night. Today I am so tired.....but I know I will be ok. Depression/anxiety is really kicking in my life right now but I know that it will get better the longer I remain drug free. I wonder how long the depression could last? I wasnt depressed until I started doing drugs and then it seems like I have used up my brains natural supply of 'happy' chemicals. I am taking better care of myself now.
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Originally Posted by dixielove
I had trouble getting to sleep last night. Today I am so tired.....but I know I will be ok.
You are great encouragement - Thank you - Luvs Ama
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((((Dixilove)))) I know what you're going through. The drugs also robbed me of my brain's happy chemicals and I have been dealing with severe depression, too. For me, I realized that I am miserable when I use, miserable when I DON'T use. Seems like I can't win. BUT, I also realized that if I stay clean and sober, EVENTUALLY I will feel better. As they say, sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly, but the miracles do happen. I am on day 30 and I do feel a little better. I focus on just getting through each 24 hours at a time. I also go to meetings, I have a sponsor and I am working the steps. I am finding loads of help and support. Hang in there and let us know how you're doing, OK?
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I just wanted to tell everyone that when you get clean THE MIRACLES DO HAPPEN!! I had a miracle happen to me today and it was a true blessing that never would have occured if I had still been using. Wow!!
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This battle is so hard. I wish it were easier. It is really hard to feel the feelings that I have instead of numbing them. But I know I have to own my emotions instead of turning away from them. Running from problems never gets them solved. I am grateful for a newfound freedom.
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St. Theresa's Prayer:
May today there be peace within. May you trust God that you are exactly
where you are meant to be. May you not forget the infinite possibilities
that are born of faith. May you use those gifts that you have received, and
pass on the love that has been given to you....May you be content knowing
you are a child of God.... Let this presence settle into your bones, and
allow your soul the freedom to sing, dance, praise and love. It is there
for each and every one of you.
May today there be peace within. May you trust God that you are exactly
where you are meant to be. May you not forget the infinite possibilities
that are born of faith. May you use those gifts that you have received, and
pass on the love that has been given to you....May you be content knowing
you are a child of God.... Let this presence settle into your bones, and
allow your soul the freedom to sing, dance, praise and love. It is there
for each and every one of you.
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I've been coke free for 35 days now. I am currently in the wings of a deep depression caused by cocaine. I anticipate that it will take at least a year for the depression to completely go away. That short term high is definitely not worth it as I am now seeing. I spent less than a year doing coke and I am going to spend the rest of my life staying away from it.
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