entropy1964

Aw that's awful. Suicide is the saddest.

If he has a family maybe you could focus your grief on being of service to them?

My husband died of cancer, jeez about 7 years ago now, and it was so rough. The 'processing' part. What even is that? I think we have funerals as a way of doing that but that didn't work for me. I eventually had my own 'ceremony' for him. Top of Mt Rose. Buried a few little things....a note in a small jar...lit a candle and just tried to meditate. For whatever reason that helped me.

When you are ready, maybe find your own way to honor him and the connection you had. Otherwise, live in honor to him daily by living to your fullest....as much as you can.

Sophie11

So terribly sorry for your loss.
I have found the SR forums on grieving helpful (after I lost my mum). Sending strength and love.

sweetichick

So sorry for your loss. Drinking doesn't help. I tried it yesterday and the pain is back today.

HTown

I wish alcohol helped grieving. I sure tried. It kept me from moving forward. You must learn to walk with grief by your side. It will always be there, but it lessens only with time. It comes in waves and I wish you peace through this valley.

Dee74

how are you MovingForward?

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Keto

I had a family member die early in my sobriety. ..... 2 years ago I could never of dealt with it without the bottle but I did (even got verbally abused at the funeral about some drama).

Very sorry for your loss but if an idiot like me can scrape theough - you can

least

I'm so sorry for the devastating loss of your friend.

fini

condolences, MF, and just sending a hello.

matrac

So sorry for your loss MF.

bexxed

I’m so sorry for your loss. Hugs from across the interwebz.

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MovingForward1

Thank you all for the response. I'm seeking therapy and will be talking to someone today.

Dee74

I'm glad MovingForward

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