Whiskertron

I am 25 was an daily drinker of 8 pints a day for 4 years plus pay day binges and codeine and sleeping pills even coke sometimes. My body is ruined for some reason I am suffering malabsorntion and have the steatorhhea I believe caused by my liver I have had a ct and ultrasound normal lft but those can be inaccurate I am 10 months sober and have seen no improvement sobriety hasn't brought me any happiness I only don't drink out of fear but I have just laid in bed for the last 3 days not eating as I can't see the point of going on with no future

kevlarsjal2

There's always a future. But it doesn't just get better without change. Being sober isn't enough, it's no guarantee that your life will be good. Sobriety doesn't bring happiness. It's just the fundament on which you can build a happy life. Still, the building has to be done by you.
And when it comes to physical health, that can be a real challenge but there are so many people living with chronic illnesses or handicaps which have happy and fulfilling lives. It's all about your mindset.

Don't give up, keep going and keep looking for things to improve your situation. You're 25, your still can do so much with your life

tekink

I didn’t feel good at 10 months either. It was still a big struggle for me.

Things did really turn around the 13 month mark and I’m coming up on 18 now. I had now idea I’d feel this good.

A lot of it is just learning how to live sober when I never gave it the chance before. I was drinking myself into liver disease and had to stop so I didn’t kill myself.

ChloeRose63

I am having a hard time at 7 months. I have a hard time not getting frustrated at having to do the same old routine everyday. I just keep reminding myself that I can change my attitude and see things differently. But, it is not as easy as it was when I could just drink and escape.
I will never stop trying. And I won't drink.

Gabe1980

Don't give up. Maybe find some face to face support to help you figure out what you need. Best wishes to you xx

John65

Hello Whiskertron,

You say that sobriety has brought no improvement but in your other thread you said 10 months ago you were vomiting blood. If you’re no longer vomiting blood I would say that’s an improvement. Are there any other improvements?



CT and ultrasound scans can give a good idea of what condition the liver is in, blood LFTs not so much. Your liver and the rest of your body will take time to heal fully, probably more than10 months.


As for sobriety and happiness, the two aren’t a given and as I said above it can take time for the delicate balances in your brain and body to return to normal. Have you ever suffered from depression? Do you think that you might be depressed now?



Take care,



J

doggonecarl

That's not recovery. If you aren't doing anything to learn to live and love a sober life, then misery will be your companion.

matrac

You may want to see your doctor for a diagnosis. Chronic pancreatitis is common in alcoholics and it can cause the symptoms you describe. There is help for that. You’re obviously not happy, but can you imagine where you’d be if you had not stopped drinking?

Hang in there

Maud

It sounds like you may be depressed also. Maybe go to your dr and seek some help for that....

Dee74

Hi whiskertron

I'm sorry that your health is still problematic but I agree with the others here who've said maybe your Dr can help.

Going back to drinking will without doubt make things worse again.

I wrecked my health - I had several mini strokes in my last detox - things I used to take for granted, like walking without difficulty, or living day to day without pain have left me now.

At the risk of being that guy who gets eyerolled...I know what the point is.

It's to make the most of each and everyday I have.

Life's already too short - I simply can't waste any more days feeling sorry for myself.

D

Nonsensical

Me either.
I used to think it would, but it doesn't.
I have come to realize that's because nothing BRINGS happiness.
Happiness is built from the inside.
I used to drink because that brought me pleasure, and the pleasure made me forget I wasn't happy.
That worked until it didn't.
Sobriety gave me the space to build happiness from within.
It has been a long, slow, arduous, gut-wrenching, humiliating, painful, beautiful experience.
Nobody brought it to me. I had to go get it.

Best of Luck on Your Journey.

Gerard52

Malabsorption and steatorrhea are due to problems with the Pancreas not producing enzymes to break down fats. Has your Dr not mentioned the pancreas or pancreatitis? If not you need to talk to him.