PaigeMasters

Does anyone else have these ? They are so unsettling to me. I get two versions of these.

The first I am drunk but I really don’t remember even taking one drink! I feel like I didn’t really relapse because for the life of me I have no recollection of intentionally taking a drink. But yet I know I somehow did because I am inebriated. Ugh!

In the second version, I am actively relapsing. Last night I dreampt that I had somehow gotten a box of beer (lol- don’t even think that exists). I was at my grandparents’ house (they passed away eons ago). I was telling myself that drinking beer is better than wine. Then I go to dispense and realize it’s indeed wine. I am simultaneously happy and worried as wine was my go-to beverage. I realize I need a better mug to hide it in, so I sneak it into a mug in the kitchen. I take my first sip and my daughter walks in. I am worried I will get caught. I feel horribly guilty but just tell myself that I will only have this one glass and it will be okay. But I know full well I will drink the entire box. I even think about the awful hangover I will have!

I am so tired of these dreams. They are really unsettling. I woke up going “THANK GOD that was only a dream!” I tend to dream about things I worry about.

Does anyone else experience this and what do you make of it?

MyLittleHorsie

I did early on. Like everything else, these too shall pass.

lessgravity

Yes I have. Happy to be sober when they end, every time.

PalmerSage

I've had similar dreams, and the longer I'm sober, the less frequent they become. Funny enough, that feeling of hiding my drinking in a dream actually serves as a good reminder, since it never feels like a positive!

Dee74

They're very common. Some folks attach a whole lot of subconscious meaning to them - I didn't.

I dreamt about high school for years after I left - didn't mean I wanted to go back there

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PaigeMasters

Thanks all for your responses. Dee- I agree with you. I think it’s just a fear of mine. I can say it certainly doesn’t mean I want to drink! Just the opposite, in fact.

ElizaD

I quit smoking 14 years ago and still, albeit rarely, have dreams where I am smoking. I'm always so relieved it was just a dream when I wake up. I don't have dreams where I am drinking though for some reason.