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Old 07-22-2018, 02:29 PM
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Welcome Wayfarer!

I never knew why I did it either. What had been fun turned into a necessity. I went on long after age 33 - into middle age. I'm so glad you're doing something now to avoid the pain & misery of advanced alcoholism. I think it will really help you to talk things over here. You're among friends who understand - like no one else. You can do it!
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Old 07-22-2018, 02:31 PM
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Good luck Wayfarer. You are not alone …
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Old 07-22-2018, 03:27 PM
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Originally Posted by Wayfarer View Post
I'm new here, but I've been lurking for quite a while. I was a social drinker since college (33 now), but for the last two years I've been drinking anywhere from 8-12 shots worth of vodka every single night and typically I put that amount away with an hour or two max and then pass out.

I've tried to stop a few times, but it never lasts more than a couple days.

Like right now, I'm waiting to get my haircut and I'm eyeing up the liquor store across the street - planning how I'll sneak a 750ml bottle vodka past my wife when I get home.

Just about every Sunday, I say to myself, "I'll start cold turkey tomorrow." It never happens.

I don't know why I do it - I have a beautiful wife, a young daughter, a house, and a good job - I'm not unhappy.

Ugh - this is so much harder than I ever imagined it'd be to quit.
Get your haircut and run for the hills. Start today, tomorrow itís not promised. If you do it today, it will be such an accomplishment that will turn into a better kick off than waiting until tomorrow. Good luck buddy !
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Old 07-24-2018, 03:03 AM
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How ya doing Wayfarer?
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Old 07-24-2018, 03:09 AM
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Is this your Day 1, Wayfarer?
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Old 07-24-2018, 08:03 PM
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Originally Posted by zoeydog View Post
How ya doing Wayfarer?
So, Sunday was bad. I bought a fifth of vodka and drank from 3 til 7 and then passed out. I woke up at 4am and went to check the bottle - 90% of it was gone

Monday morning I told my wife that the only way I'm not going to ruin my life is to stop - completely. No more having a couple drinks with buddies or even a glass of champagne at a wedding - not a drop - nothing - it's the only way.

Haven't had a drop since I passed out Sunday night...

Today was day two of no alcohol.
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Old 07-24-2018, 08:06 PM
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Originally Posted by ChloeRose63 View Post
Is this your Day 1, Wayfarer?
Today was day two.

So far so good, but I know it's only going to get harder.
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Old 07-24-2018, 08:08 PM
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but I know it's only going to get harder.
Remember, the hard part doesn't last forever, altho it might seem like it. It will get better, the longer you're sober.
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Old 07-24-2018, 08:21 PM
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Hey wayfarer - not having that first drink is a fundamental I think.

It'll be hard but it won't always be this hard - you can do this

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Old 07-24-2018, 08:28 PM
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Good for you! Congratulations on Day 2! You can do this. Other people are doing this. It's possible to get your life back. Don't pay attention to that little lying voice in your head that tells you otherwise.
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Old 07-24-2018, 08:43 PM
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Great job Wayfarer, have you thought about a plan to help you stick with your sobriety?
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Old 07-25-2018, 04:26 AM
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Day 2 is great! Just take it one day at a time and don't pick up that first drink!
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Old 07-25-2018, 06:38 AM
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Checking in, Wayfarer. Is today Day 3? How are you doing? Recovery is a rollercoaster ride. Expect it will be hard, then you think you’ve got this, then it gets hard again and so on. It took me about six weeks before I started to feel regularly normal again but a year before I felt like I was really on my way. I’m a year and a half now and recently had some difficulties thinking I might relapse, but started coming here again and found so much support. I have made this a daily practice now to check in even if I don’t post anything. I have committed to having a support system as a lifetime practice. Even after I felt strong, there’s so much social pressure to easily get pulled back in and I feel that I need to belong to a sober community. I’ve also done therapy and meditation (medication too).
Do you have a long term plan? I think this is important for long term sobriety.
Like others have said here.....stay away from that first drink and don’t let your mind trip you up thinking moderation is possible. Most of us have tried that and ended up right back where we were, even worse, even if moderation worked for a little while.
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Old 07-25-2018, 06:47 AM
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I'm glad you're doing well, Wayfarer!
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Old 07-25-2018, 12:18 PM
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Yes - today is day 3. Still dry.

I couldn't sleep last night, but I powered through this morning with a lot of coffee and busying myself at work.

The hardest part of the day for me is the evening, since that's when I get off work (2 hours from now) and typically begin my nightly binge.

I've held the line thus far though - almost through my 3rd day without the poison.

Thanks for checking in - it means a lot.
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Old 07-25-2018, 12:28 PM
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Congratulations on your decision !

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2 Nothing Sucks Forever ( hattip Mesa Man)
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Old 07-25-2018, 12:34 PM
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Sleep will come more easily in time. Just don't buy into any thoughts that may suggest you can't do this.

You absolutely can.

Do you have a plan for dinner? I always figure out what I'm having sometime after lunch, and I don't get caught without food. Food = really important.
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Old 07-25-2018, 12:37 PM
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Congrats on your Day 3, Wayfarer. Everything will improve & become easier as you get some sober time built up.
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Old 07-25-2018, 12:59 PM
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You'll never have to go through these uncomfortable days again....if you never drink again.
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Old 07-25-2018, 01:59 PM
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Congrats on Day 3! Hope you are feeling stronger! It gets better each day so stay with us!
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