pitypot
 

Day 0 almost done. Ashamed and afraid of what and who I am becoming; that is, irritable, defensive, joy-less, hyper-critical etc etc when was once so laid back, smiley and happy.
Be good to 'just be' once again and to be able to watch paint dry and have comfort in own skin. Instead, it's the old wallowing in a self-pity party with poor-me, poor-me, pour-me thingy stage.
Wine helps relieve the pity-pot scenario. Blacked out last night. Vicious cycle.
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Day 1 tomorrow. Hope to check in to say I could do day 1.

7/22/18 is an awesome sobriety date

make it so by applying a plan of action!

meetings
sponsor
steps
service to others - helping Gods kids
higher power

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Tomorrow will be a new beginning. Get rid of all the booze and start drinking water. Glad you are here for support. Keep with us. We are here to help.

Yes do check in tomorrow or as often as you want. We all know just how you are feeling trumpton, knowing that booze is doing all sorts of damage to us physically, mentally, emotionally and financially but still wanting to drink anyway and despising ourselves for doing it.

The fact that you have come to this site is great as it shows that you want to quit and have some determination to do it. Now it is just a question of getting into the right frame of mind to beat this. It can seem impossibly hard to begin with but it does get easier with time.

Welcome trumpton! We're glad you are here.

I felt the same way when I first found SR. What had once been fun & relaxing had turned my life into a nightmare. I no longer wanted a drink, I needed it, or I would shake & get sick. I was drinking all day, completely dependent. It was wonderful to get free. You can do it.

There comes a point where life without alcohol is so much better than life with it.

The beginning can be very rough and uncomfortable, but it's worth it (and you deserve it)!

Welcome aboard Trumpton - keep moving forward :)

it really does get a lot better than where you are now :)

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