Lmag

I’m new to this forum and just thought it might help to hear stories so I don’t feel so alone and very scared. I drink . And have been hiding it for years now as my partner never really liked me drinking as I always had that vibe too many .
So I hid it and now it’s a part of my life . He doesn’t understand as he has he strongest willpower ever. Anyway he found out I was drinking on a family holiday and it ruined it for him and I have pushed him too far I feel. So back on the wagon and day 2 here. Nervous and scared.

least

Welcome to the family. You'll find a lot of support here. I hope we can help you stay sober for good.

Verdantia

Welcome, Lmag, and well done on day 2. I hope you stick around and post often. This site has been a very important part of my recovery.
Things will get better--I understand the nervousness and fear, but there is a fabulous sober life waiting. Don't get discouraged--there will be ups and downs but there is no situation that drinking will not make worse. Best wishes on your sober journey.

Ghostlight1

Hello, welcome and congratulations on two days.
I hid my drinking, too. Or at least I thought I was hiding it. I was pretty crafty about it at first, but then it became obvious to those around me that I was drinking.
I was only hiding the realization from myself that I could not control my drinking. And I was drinking all the time, no matter the time of day.

You're definitely not alone. My drinking progressed to the point where I was drinking every day. All day and night. Drinking tends to be progressive to the alcoholic.

Best to you, and stick around. You'll find a lot of support here.

Forward12

Hiding is a very bad sign. You are much better than this, attend daily AA, get at addict therapist, whatever it takes!

lessgravity

Welcome Lmag. Many of us hid the drink from those we loved for years. It's a horrible way to life.

Here's to getting better and sober. Stay strong.

Ghostlight1

I forgot to mention, you're not alone. And I was definitely scared to stop drinking, too.
I didn't know what to expect. I had lost my real self to drinking years before. I didn't even know what I would be like sober.

Turns out, I like the sober me.
It's natural to be scared about something that has become such a big part of our lives. Nervous and anxious, too.
These things will fade away once we get a little sobriety under our belt.

There's a good, sober person in you just waiting to come out. I think you'll like the new you and I bet your partner will too.
Best to you. I've been in your spot. You're not alone.

thomas11

Being scared to drink isn't necessarily a bad thing. Fear is a great motivator. As you accumulate sober time, your fears should lessen. Early on everything is tough. Welcome to SR.

Gabe1980

Hi Lmag. I've been here for almost a year and there is a ton of info and advice here to help you. Come over the the 24 thread too, it is a great way to meet folks and commit to 24 hours every day. I'll look forward to seeing you around xx

PaigeMasters

Welcome, Lmag! I was a hider too. Isn’t that an exhausting way to live?? Happy you are here- this forum is definitely one of the tools in my ammunition box for living sober.

We are glad you are here.

Atlast9999

Great statement! I discovered I like sober me as well! I’m glad you posted this - it’s a good reminder.

Anna

Lmag, I hid, or tried to hide, my drinking from my spouse, too. It was awful - for him and for me. It becomes part of your life and lying becomes the norm. You've come to a great place to find support!