Okay.
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Okay.
After three hellish detoxes in a single month, and now after 2 months in rehab (again). And after last night. I thought I could moderate.
Nope.
Headaches, more BS. I can not win with alcohol in my life.
PAWS sucks, really. Depression, especially, is almost literally a killer.
But one thing I finally figured out at 35 is that; nope - it doesn't work. Alcohol needs to be cut out.
So. Okay. I'll do my best to try to enjoy life without it. Day 1.
/relapserant
Nope.
Headaches, more BS. I can not win with alcohol in my life.
PAWS sucks, really. Depression, especially, is almost literally a killer.
But one thing I finally figured out at 35 is that; nope - it doesn't work. Alcohol needs to be cut out.
So. Okay. I'll do my best to try to enjoy life without it. Day 1.
/relapserant
Atta boy! Proud of ya and you will be proud of yourself when you wake up the rest of your life with no hangovers. It really feels good to be sober so you have something valuable to focus on. You got this so get to work!
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Very true. At rehab I was always joined social activities like board games (cards, chess), team games like volley ball. I never took initiative, the humble person I am. But I was always lurking around for a game...
Truth be told, I don't really have any friends here at home, so it can get a lil bit flustersome, if that's even a word.
Not feeling too good today, but I guess my new "high" is waking up freshly, withouth a hangover.
Truth be told, I don't really have any friends here at home, so it can get a lil bit flustersome, if that's even a word.
Not feeling too good today, but I guess my new "high" is waking up freshly, withouth a hangover.
Hi Polaroid. I had to come to that realization too - but I was much older. I'm so glad that at 35 you're seeing what needs to happen. I was a slow learner, & nearly lost my life trying to moderate.
Flustersome may not be a word, but it should be.
Flustersome may not be a word, but it should be.
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Sounds like you’ve now got a clear understanding of your alcoholic condition. Now into action; read the book AA (free online) and get to some meetings. Work multiple strategies including SR etc on top of that to keep moving forwards sober and trying to implement that crucial change in your behaviour, thoughts, and outlook on life.
Addiction is for life.
It has a double whammy....physical and mental.
Long after the physical subsides....maybe a month...the mental lasts....forever.
I have had 2 shots...less then 3 oz...in over 3 years and I still crave a bit.
Penn...of Penn and Teller...talked about alcohol addiction and said it is a decision not a disease.
Cancer is a disease, not alcohol addiction.
I must decide not to drink.
I have grown out of drinking.
Now, please God help me....SR help me.
I don't have to do this alone.
Thanks.
It has a double whammy....physical and mental.
Long after the physical subsides....maybe a month...the mental lasts....forever.
I have had 2 shots...less then 3 oz...in over 3 years and I still crave a bit.
Penn...of Penn and Teller...talked about alcohol addiction and said it is a decision not a disease.
Cancer is a disease, not alcohol addiction.
I must decide not to drink.
I have grown out of drinking.
Now, please God help me....SR help me.
I don't have to do this alone.
Thanks.
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